Broken blue boy
My heart aches for you
And yours for her
But I don’t know how to stop loving you

She broke your heart
So tell me why my chest is aching
I’d take all the pain you feel
At no cost at all
If only you’d look me just once with admiration in your eyes

I’ll mend your heart
Stitch it together with a needle and thread
I’ll sew my hand to your chest
Feel your heartbeat beneath my palm
Reminding us both that you’re alive and healthy
Even if your mind is struggling to go on without her
Your heart still beats in tune with mine

Broken blue boy
Someday you’ll wake up and laugh again
The sun will feel warm on your skin
And you’ll realize that your chest is no longer hollow
Someday you’ll wake up
And your heart will no longer beat for her
But for yourself

Everyone is living their fairytale
While I’m living in hell
Come back to me already
Let's make this right
Mend this hole and close it tight
No one has to ever know
The deep cuts created
The harmful words spoke
Let’s go back to the way things were
Before you shattered my heart
Before everything between you and me fell apart

As Long As Stars
Are In The Skies
The Love You Knew
Will Never Die

Cross Paths You Will
Once Again
The Question Is
Who Knows When

If I had the chance to see you,
in the empty space where you once took your place,
to sit back and watch the family you created gather together,
I don’t know just what all I’d say.
I wouldn’t have enough time left in the minutes of eternity,
to tell you all that you mean to me.
We sit here without your presence,
and it’s so hard because without you,
this is less than half of being home.
Wish we had the time,
because I know
if you could be here forever,
I’d call for you each morning just to tell you how comforting it is to hear your voice.
If you could be here forever,
I’d come home each day, from a stressful life away,
and show you how much I appreciate everything that you are,
and everything that you’ve given to me.
I’d tell you how beautiful you are to me.
if only you could be here forever.

If time is what we need, why doesn’t it pass fast enough.

To wash away the past, it doesn’t take us far enough.

In this life time there’s so much to bare, I could combust.

Is there even enough time?
For us to be us?

I fear that only time could tell, but there may not be enough.

What could time tell me, except there’s a possibility of us or no us?

In due time I tell me, but it proves not enough.

Maybe it would be best, if I simply self distruct.

honey
     after you were gone, everything started to grow bitter. all i want is
     for  something to feel sweet again.
chili powder
     you brought a variety into life that i've never found elsewhere.
     although i loved it- and, in honesty, still do- i've understood life
     without it to be bland.
headphones
     i hear the sound of your voice in the way people tap their feet and click
     their pens like you did. the refrigerator hums songs you used to sing
     in the silences you created when you stopped singing them to me
tissues
     isn't it funny how you used to be the one who made my tears dry,
     and yet now, you're the one who removes the dams my eyes had
     finally built?
birthday cards
     it is a profound celebration; i've been reborn into someone whose
     love can no longer belong to you.