I don’t like my mind right now,
driving myself crazy over the thought of you.
But nothing I do seems to let you go.
I’m going ******* crazy,
trying to hold on to something not there
because you continue to haunt me.
Anytime I think you’re finally gone,
you come back.
Making me feel like everything is my fault,
that I’m the reason you left in the first place.
I wish I could be comforted by my own company,
but I hate being alone.
I don’t know how to trust myself anymore,
or anyone for that fact.
I’m looking in the mirror
and not liking what I see again.
Maybe if I was beautiful,
or maybe even half of what you wish I was.
Then, and only then, could you accept me.
Love me for who I am
and not the thought of who you want me to be.
Sorry for all the kind of depressing stuff lately, you can thank my sleepless nights for those. :)