Through the silent tears
My endless heartache
Cant escape the fact my longing to be wanted
Not sexually but as a person by your side

To be the love you choose
Instead all I am is that person you spend time with
Have decent conversation with
Always that person to make you feel special

Ive loved a lot of people in life
I know the great and the worst love
The passion and anger
To experience the light within isn’t only in one life time

You make me feel comfortable safe
Is that it? Is that all I get?
How long am I supposed to wait to feel as ecstatic as you are
Is all my problems just my walls denying my heart to you

I live with you and yet I cant push away this agonizing feeling of a prison

Why do I feel so sad?
Each time I turn over
I physically, feel more bad.
Once I get over it
and think I'm alright...
the next day comes.
Then I'm up all night.

The autumn reminds
Me of memories of you
Of days past
And my days of blue.
The autumn lingers
With dreams of fair
When distance was naught
And love was to share.
This autumn will come
And sooner it will be
Just trinklets of you
And shattered pieces of me.
And I really disdain
This autumn so near
All I really care for
Are words you will never hear

She said,
I want to die
Just let me die.
And I felt her words
Throughout the entirety of my soul
Because I knew
I knew.

We sat there stroking her back
He and I.
As she kept saying
I want to die
I looked up at him
And I saw it in his eyes
And he saw it in mine
Because he knew.
He knew.

Three broken people
Sitting at a party together.
Her sober thoughts coming out
As drunk words.
I heard it in her voice,
He saw it in my eyes,
I saw it in his eyes,
And for one second,
None of us were alone
Together we shared the pain.
Because we knew.
We knew.

in love,
I was never
afraid of falling

I was only afraid
of the moment
when my body
hits the ground