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1.7k · Jul 2015
A promise
Christina Jul 2015
Back to this kind of pain.
Creeping through the holes of my window
and the dark corners in my room.

Do I need the salvation of my blade?
Do I want it?
I made a promise.

Promises,promises...
Promises I could never keep
Will I break it this time?
1.5k · Jul 2015
Skin
Christina Jul 2015
One day I will feel proud in my skin.
One day I won't have to cut everywhere just to destroy it.

*One day
1.4k · Aug 2015
Nightmares
Christina Aug 2015
Even on my dreams you were right..
People will leave me or they have left
and I am too blind to tell.
It had always been like that

There was something wrong with me
from a very young age
that made people wanna leave.
You knew...
You used it against me
But it doesn't matter now

**I am gone too
1.3k · Jul 2015
Birthday
Christina Jul 2015
1,2,3,4,5.
5 months till my birthday
Birth-death
Maybe it will be my death date too
Hope so
That's what I'll wish for sure
1.2k · Apr 2016
Fml
Christina Apr 2016
Fml
I have so many faults
and you overthink about them
but I am not a bad person I swear
And it keeps up all night
thinking these thoughts are killing you
I wish I didn't make these mistakes but I wouldn't know what I do now
Not really a poem :/
972 · Aug 2015
Untitled
Christina Aug 2015
You don't have the right
You don't know me
That's what ****** me off about people
Thinking they know soemebody
because they knew him a year ago.

A person can change so much in a year you have no idea
714 · Aug 2015
This is the night
Christina Aug 2015
Killing myself never seemed so good
as it is right now
I am screaming at the top of my lungs
yet you can't hear it
Ι guess this is goodbye
685 · Apr 2016
Dad
Christina Apr 2016
Dad
I miss him and I shouldn't say ******* having lost someone I love
I miss him and I should stop thinking how ****** up the world is
I miss him and hiding things is terrible
I miss you and I wish you were here
I wish I could have said goodbye
637 · Jul 2015
10-01-2015
Christina Jul 2015
13 days**
You are gone 13 days.
Still I can't bear the thought we have lost you.
It's unreal I can't believe it

I am hurt and these demons want me
to collapse.
If you were here you wouldn't let them
How can you be gone?
You are gone 13 days..
631 · Jul 2015
Skins
Christina Jul 2015
Put your skin on my my skin
Let our hands unravel the secrets of our bodies
Every curve,every line
The surface of your body

My body screams for your touch
Why can't you hear it?
Why won't you?

You aren't here though
Will you ever be?
541 · Jul 2015
Him (1)
Christina Jul 2015
He's different from the others
He has such pure soul
He is every girl's type
Making girls fall in love wherever
he goes
But he takes me home

He's different from the others
He has that **** look thing
He is so special
Making girls throw themselves
at him
*But he walks me home
527 · Dec 2015
Mess
Christina Dec 2015
From a young age the friends I had became less and less..
They saw the real me,my mess so they left me.
Now I am not surprised when they leave
*I expect them to
521 · Jul 2015
Thoughts
Christina Jul 2015
I say the wrong things and hurt people
because people have hurt me all my life.
They never said ''hey I am sorry for the pain
I caused you.''
I think everyone is lying to me..

I wish I wasn't like that.
I wish I had jumped off that cliff.
Then the demons would disappear
*And the darkness would appear
472 · Aug 2015
Untitled
Christina Aug 2015
Too late to change my mind
your opinion doesn't matter to me
I am better off dead
470 · Jul 2015
Psychotherapy
Christina Jul 2015
I want to quit.  
I don't feel like telling them
every thing that goes through my mind.
I never did.
I hided things.
I always hide stuff.
But I don't know when my therapy will end
and that scares me.
Quiting it sounds good right now..
432 · Jul 2015
Me
Christina Jul 2015
Me
Will there ever be someone who understands me?
Who gets my humour,who who sees my true self
Not the one who I may seem like
The depressed weird girl who has cuts on her thigh and wrist
Who can't wear dresses and shorts near family members bc they are going to see it
The girl who hates places and loves sarcasm
The girl who loves people but hates them more than anything
That depressed weird girl who nobody wants to know and nobody ever will
388 · Jul 2015
Fuck
Christina Jul 2015
Lately,
I have been smoking a lot.
Drinking more.
Thinking about suicide higher than before.

Sadness.
Sweet sadness..
I have missed you.
370 · Jul 2015
Sadness
Christina Jul 2015
The clock ticked it's 5 am
I am laying in my bed
Smoking a cigarette
Thinking of all the wrongs in my life..

Sadness hits you at nights
It makes you wish you had disappeared
Makes you numb,makes you cry
Makes you wanna die

I wish I didn't felt this way
Wish I could rewind 7 years
to a different day
366 · Jul 2015
Different
Christina Jul 2015
He is different..
That's why I like him
362 · Jul 2015
My sunshine
Christina Jul 2015
Your goodmornings and goodnights
make my day
You are so special to me
Never gotten tired at me

*You are the sun,the moon and stars
of my heart
343 · Jul 2015
Useless
Christina Jul 2015
Useless *******,
that's what they call me.
They are right.I am.
I shouldn't be here.
334 · Jul 2015
Life
Christina Jul 2015
So this is what my life has become
Waiting for a message
Waiting for something
to make my dull life exciting
Waiting for sth that I know that will never come
Is it worth waiting for?
293 · Jul 2015
My life
Christina Jul 2015
Cigarette after cigarette

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