with every
breath you
take i
wonder
how can
someone so
beautiful
be so
sad?

i touch my lips
and realize they
are a shade of red
is it love?
blood?
wine?
who knows,
kiss me to check

the knife i held in my hand
the blood that poured from my chest
both crimson red, just like the blood that drips from my worn down finger tips when i clutched the thorns on the roses you gave to me, valentine’s curse
an open wound, cut in the shape of a heart
the doorway to my now empty rib cages that once housed the heart that beat solely for me

hand dyed crimson
is that my blood? or is that now your blood too?
vertigo symptoms
i can feel the heart beating in my palm
i place it on the gilded platter
i hand the platter to you
here is my heart
it beats only for you
it will love you for as long as you let it
please cherish it, treat it kindly
it is yours now, do with it what you wish

you took the knife from my hand and stabbed it
the room became silent, the beating had died out
with the disappearance of the beat, i disappeared with it.

I’m tired of being hurt by people I care about
Maybe it would be easier just not to care

why couldn’t i speak,
think of anything to say?
why didn’t i tell him
i was always just one call away?
my feelings lay in a heap,
my heart is a catastrophe.
my god,
he wouldn’t even look at me.
why am i rhyming?
i’m so beyond structure.
baby
           i
               am
                       falling
                                    apart.
                                                  you
                                                           gave
                                                   me
                                           the
                               world,
                      said
                   i
         was
your
          girl.

what                 ever
                 happened              to
forever                          and
              
                   always?