Last year when the leaves fell
So did my heart
Last year when colors changed
My life was rearranged

Autumn was different last year
Than it had been before
Some things broke my heart
And people let me down

I've been dreading Autumn
But here it is now
And Autumm, I'll learn to love you
Except I'm not sure how

It's scary when the seasons
Change your point of view
But this year I'll try
To just keep thinking of You.

It's hard to wait for something that may never come
It's hard to hear the tune of a song that's never sung
It's hard to not let go
When you're hanging by a thread

When you push feelings back so they don't enter your mind
You push things away that are meant to live inside
When you put yourself in charge and think that you're done
You realize the one that should be in charge is The One.

Sometimes He calls to us in a roar
Sometimes I can't hear Him while the rain pours
I know He just wants me to hold on to hope
But that's a hard thing to cling to when you don't even know how to cope

I wonder sometimes if this hard road will end
I feel often unsure of the twists and the bends
This body of mine is feeble and weak
But He is the strong one and I know He will speak

And this I have pondered many a day
Why I can't let this go, I cannot say
But this is one thing I know and I treasure
Whenever I fall, He says to me and all the world, "I will catch her."

Empty craving
In my chest
Looking away
No eye contact
Love everything
About this place
But in my hands
There's empty space
Lonely,
I'm just lonely
Seeing everyone
Who has a someone

I know your heart
I know your hands
I know your outline
I've seen it in the sunrise
I wake up with your voice in my ears
I know I haven't met you yet
Because in my dreams
I can't see your face

I'm waiting
Oh, darling, I'm waiting

What do I do when you've broken my heart?
I honestly knew that you would from the start.
But I also thought that we'd be forever,
I wish I could see ahead.

And after all these months hurt and crying,
You finally see that my heart is sighing.
What if you regret what you said,
What if I fall for that again...
What if I fall for you again...?

What if I fall for this story again,
Maybe these things are the stroke of God's pen.
What if this simply is meant to be,
And hurting is all that we both can see?

And what if it's just the Devil playing tricks,
What if I'm not the one that you'll pick?
What would I do then...?
And that question is why I won't fall for you again.

Tonight
My head is pounding
With a resounding
"I miss you"

I miss
The butterflies
They went with you
I suppose

I closed that door
A long, long time ago
But I still watch you
Through the windows

Love
It never dies
Does it?

She was strong
Strong as steel
She was so strong
But she could still feel

She was strong
And so was her call
But just as strong
Around her heart, were walls

The walls were strong
So, so strong.
To keep out boys who might do her wrong
But along came a boy
Who told her things that she never knew
And to her surprise, this boy stayed true.  

And after a while, she saw he was still there
And yes she was strong
But it takes strength to care.

So she opened her door
And let him inside
He rebuilt her walls
So she didn't have to hide

He rebuilt the walls
And put windows in
So that the warm, warm sunshine could come flooding in.

You say I smile to often
You say I don't know pain
Well, friend, if you knew my night time dreams
You wouldn't say it again

They say that us smilers are silly
That life is simply the loss and gain
But they don't know our secret
They think it's all trained

Here is the smilers secret
We walk through the dark tunnels of life just like you
But when you turn from the light at the end of the tunnel
We walk until the light is our point of view

And we never get tired of the light on our face
We never return to the dark
For who would want to walk in that tunnel
When you've seen the light of His heart?

I think that's part of your problem
You're afraid of what you don't know
I think that you've only known darkness
And that's all you think you can sow

Yes darkness still follows me sometimes
It's just a part of this life
But you chose to let light or dark lead you
Through the tunnels of strife

But please, don't follow the tunnel's dark paths
And next time the light shines in your eyes
Remember it's not pointing out your pain
It's helping you see past the lies

So walk through the light at your tunnel
And if you are able to
Remember to take some of that light
And take it to others, like I've done for you