A* girl who is hoping to be with me,
Theming all her poetry around me,
Unable I am to reflect her feelings,
Lose I did myself in my past lover.
Love her I did that bit too much,
Of her decisions I was an abider,
Vainly are all the sacrifices I made,
Except only when unavoidable,
Did I ever ignore her? I did not.
Killed me she with her love and deceit,
Remain just the memories of her,
I let my mind linger in past,
Pleasured I am by her memories,
I just cannot once again take chances.
And I will just live with her memories,
Not that I consider myself so worse,
Desist I will from marriage all my life.
I am so scared of loving anyone else,
Slowly I watch my days running out.
Now I will never be uncertain,
Of course I would be sans fear,
What scares me would be past.
Scientist I want to become for real,
Concentrate I will more on career,
And her memories won't plague,
Romance I will with myself more,
Elephantine will be my happiness,
Dress rehearsals I do for success.
Old memories will not haunt me,
Finally I'll be one with happiness.
Last desire of my heart,
Of course won't be fullfilled,
Very sure because I am lonely,
E**njoy I'll this eternal loneliness.
I am sorry Kalpana, I can't ever move on.
Neither with you nor anyone else.
My HP Poem #1586
©Atul Kaushal