Draining life to fill it with watered-down pain, can he feel now? If my teeth make an appearance, you'll be given your fix of my 'happiness,' injected through your cranium. I wish I could navigate my naive wishes, as I'm sinking in my pillows, and the light on the ceiling is winking at me as I'm patched up, written in 'unhappy' My uncanny doubts are fancying a feathery gift of sleep, unlike this fascination with falling feet to my death of dreams-
It's like I like sadness. I hate it, but I want to cry. I can't anymore. I'm so confused right now with everything in my life, just like this confusing writing.
Panic attacks for me are shakey. I start to think everyone's starring, I wonder what they're thinking. My resoloution is to get out. Then the tears come pouring down. As they do my body follows. I sink to the ground and try to hide myself. The sleeves of my jacket become soaked, And then my heart feels like it'll explode. Anxiety is a whole nother code.
Our entire relationship I felt like all I was doing was waiting for you and I to break like goodbye was only one kiss away
And when I finally started feeling like maybe, just maybe we would prove ourselves wrong you left me in shambles on the floor shards of our favorite memories cutting deep and letting me bleed flowers painted red
I can't seem to escape everything feels laced with your winter remnants blooming a stark white contrast to my deep dark wounds leaving broken roses everywhere
I love company In the form of anxious thoughts I am less lonely Accompanied by twenty screaming voices Tearing at my every inch of flesh Pouring pain into my veins Crying is good for the soul They laugh in union As I lie lonely in my bed Hoping someone will find me Bruised and broken And take me into their arms Hold me like a child But you are too grown to feel such things These voices whisper, licking blood Carefully off their fingers Spikes poke at my sides leaving no room For me to move or breathe I am slowly dying And yet I tell you I am fine For if I were to ever admit That this is how I truly feel My demons would take form No longer shadows but figures Ready to take me whole