...you stained my life with paint I've failed to wash off..I'm proud of the design you put upon it.. *thank you

we pretend all day
so ashamed to say
that when..
the sun goes down
we find comfort
amidst our tongues
and weakened souls
..they shouldn't know
because we're great
and they'll shout
they'll gossip
but the more we hide
the easier we break
if no one knows
then we're not proud

yes
true
very true
you got me flirting
with somebody else
..guilty
of course i am
i was poisoned
by the unfaithful world
and trust less in loyalty
so i go astray
before i'm betrayed
well looks like
you just
don't want to listen anymore..
*broken

complaint is staining it all
with nothing to wipe up the mess
i'll walk away
simply walk my way
..i'm your unheard speech
that screams too loud
to be noticed..
of course i'm right
deserve better..i do

written words but they got me floating
            ..if only i had seen you..
*speaking words that give life

i gave up on you
you can't read signs
& you just can't...
just can't do the math
i smell all the threats
the threats of messing with you
it's called ******* up my own head
..so a few steps back is relief
more steps back is redemption
..says my smiling soul..
..so i'll head back
straight to my dreamer's couch
to nurse my swaying emotions
..i need an explosive kind of thing
and real chemistry..