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You see that tear slide from her eye
Yet you do nothing
You walk away unsure of yourself
She falls to her knees and cries
You continue to walk away
Thinking only of yourself
It was your fault
Yet you deny it
Later you'll break up with her
And then complain about it
That she wasn't good enough
You could do better

You notice your grades slip
And you complain about it
But you don't study
You say school is stupid
It's a waste of time
Yet you take a test and get upset at the results
You get help for that job placement test
And yet you still say school is ****

You get the job that you wanted
But it doesn't play out like you dreamed
You complain about it
And let yourself feel sorry
Yet you don't try at it
You let it eat you alive
Still not trying and yet you think you deserve a raise
You think it will happen if you stay long enough

You let your body go
Eating, partying, playing games
And you complain about it
Yet you don't try to fix it
You don't feel like working out
Or running like you use to
You say you'll do it later
but never do
Life, you say, *****
But you never try to make it better
You say maybe later I'll take a stab at it

You get angry at everything
Your job
Your friends
Your games
Your life
Yet you don't do anything about it
You'll throw things, hit things, but worst of all

You'll complain
My life flashed before my eyes
That's when I knew it was full of lies.

So many people come and go
Pulling my heart strings to and fro.

People think of it as a game
To make my life so full of pain.

All the tears and blood I've let leek
All because I've been dubbed a freak.

Even the one that claimed he loved me left
Breaking what was left of the heart in my chest.

A mother who lectures me
When all I want is to be set free.

One day I almost died
No one but me sat down and cried.

It made me wonder if I should of let go
At that moment the depression decided to show.

I wish to be numb
But I know that feeling is never going to come.

Why can't people care
Life just isn't fair.

It was so painful, I wish I never had to see
My life, flash before me.
You told me you loved me
Then left me in the cold
Frozen and numb
I ached to be told

Tell me you love me
Just one last time
So I can remember
That I'm just fine

Don't tell me you love me
I'm tired of lies
I'd rather just cut
All of our ties

You once said you loved me
And I was a fool
I believed you
Not knowing I was just a tool

You once said you hate me
It was a tone of endearment
But those words you said
Was not worth the tears that I shed

You told me you loved me
I was an idiot to believe
You said I wasn't good enough
But I still didn't think you would leave

Now I'm ripped to shreds
You told me that you loved me
But then you cut me up
The tears I've shed will never let me see

That you once loved me
Today is the day
That all the things that I fear
Will disappear
And I will be just a memory

Just a memory
I don't understand
Why don't you look at me
I am not invisible
I am here, I am here

And though I call you
I seem to just disappear
I want you
Why are you looking away
Please just tell me that everything's gonna be okay

I can't feel
I can't see
I can't do anything without a key
I want you
I want you

Today is the day
All my worries have slipped away
I can sleep well without the fear
And I will be a memory

Today is the day
That all my hopes will fade away
All will seem like just a dream
And I am just a memory
I am just a memory

I won't lie
I won't cry
I won't die and be alone
I want you
I want you

I can see you but you can't see me
I don't understand
Were did I go wrong
I can't be just a memory

I want you
I want you
Don't you see
That it's just me
Not a memory
I want you
I want you
I am not a memory
I can't be dead
I can't be dead

I am a memory
I am just imaginary
I am in your wounded eyes
I am the reason for your grieving tears

I am just a memory
I wrote this many years ago...It's not that good but I thought I'd share.

It may seem kind of repetitive but the repetition is more of thoughts rather than words...if that makes sense.....
I can't see anything
All I see is black
I can't feel anything
All I feel is numb
I can't hear anything
It's like someone pulled a plug
And my heart feels like it will explode
But all those around me shrug
I don't know what to do
Its like someone wants me dead
I don't understand
Why are they so cruel
Maybe if I just run
Maybe then they will not think me a fool

I am just a nobody
A freak around a town
They don't care about me
But that's alright
I will survive
How many places will I go in order to stay alive
I am in need a place to stay
But no one really cares

I am a runaway girl
A child in need
But they just turn their head
I don't know what to do
I have to survive
I feel so surrounded
So I take a deep breath and dive

Who knows maybe I'll survive
I try to believe that everything will be okay
Though as things get harder
I forget that I'm stronger
And as the night goes and fades away
I remember that it's just the dawn before the day

I have a hope and a fear and a dream
A heart that will ache and squeeze and scream
A soul that will twist with agony
Though through it all I know that everything will be kept alive
Because I know I will survive

A night that fades from dusk to dawn
It's just the moon that rises before the sun
How many times I want to howl
Though everyone believes it is because I'm foul

They don't know the pain that I feel
The hurt that I harbor inside
They don't understand that this is my life
That I am stuck and cannot hide

Though I am strong
I have to believe that not everything is as it seems
Because as soon as things look up I know
The devil will throw in a hook
I'll get trapped and hooked and snared
A thousand tries but fails in one way
A million ways a billion ways
A nonstop push and pull
An eternity of pain

I shall survive because I keep my faith alive
Those that doubt will be blind and stumble about
I cannot dream but hope for ways out

I know it's only a twilight of days to come
A new way to make the pain go numb
So I shall sing and shout and dance around
To hope and dream that the new feeling is found
Not really morbid but I wrote this long ago...with some edits of course.
It's unfortunate
That you had to die
Even more so
Because it was me who
Had held the knife

******, you cried
******, so perfect
The way you screamed
When your stomach
Was exposed

Your heart was racing
In a fear unspoken
Your breathing was slim,
For your lungs would not open

Blood paints the walls
And I take a taste
Someday maybe I
Will share the same fate
Welcoming death's
Eternal embrace
If I didn't care
Then we wouldn't be
Having this conversation..
Now, would we?
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