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Dresden Jan 2018
Caught off guard, a familiar feeling returned to me
I thought had fled forever
leaving me empty
This new face, I know so little about
fills my heart with joy
and feelings I cannot doubt
  Jan 2018 Dresden
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so happy
so happ
so hap
so ha
so h
so
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su
sui
suic
suici
suicid
suicida
suicidal
edit: thank you for all your feedback, it is nice to hear support as well!
Dresden Jan 2018
I feel the cuts along my side
today was the day I intended to commit suicide
I planned and planned to make distractions
but my birthday gift
was endless cancellations
As I sit alone I can't help but think,
"should my enticing plan be enacted?"
  Jan 2018 Dresden
empty seas
sometimes
i want to
s c r a t c h  m y  s k i n  o f f
peel it off my body
in a desperate attempt
to set free the
self-hatred and anxiety

sometimes
i want to
t a k e  a  k n i f e  t o  m y  f a t
carving it away
shaping my body
into something
that won't disgust me

sometimes
i want to
s t a r t  o v e r
take an unforgiving blade
to the girl i used to be
run away until my lungs burst
and i'm finally set free
Dresden Jan 2018
This glass between us holds a haze
that grows each and every day
I see you building up this steam
so you can freely waste away

But the reflection that you somehow see
regardless of the lack of transparency
I explain to you it doesn't come close
to what's in front of me

So tuck, duck, and hide away
it's not my fault you decided to betray
and spend all of your energy feeding
the monster in this mirror that's making you decay
Dresden Jan 2018
Memories flash past me
as I drive the painfully familiar ride home

Memories of feelings
excitement, fear, and being alone

Each trip so different from the last
progressively becoming more sickening

Time only heals
because time changes everything
Dresden Jan 2018
You had yet to discover that you were polyamorous
and I was purely monogamous
but we were in love

I just wanted you
but you wanted others
as well as me

When we first met
you looked at me as if I were the only person
that sees the world as you do

After years of beautiful memories
your eyes no longer looked at me that way
and you broke my heart as well as my trust

But instead of seeing yourself as a cheat
and begging for forgiveness
you asked me to accept this new side of you

Polyamory...
am I terrible for not being open minded enough
to accept this new and mysterious concept?

Because I can't help but see it as
a pathetic excuse
for you to hide behind
instead of facing the truth
This piece is not meant to target people who practice polyamory, however I am really struggling to come to terms with it.  Please feel free to share your experiences with polyamory, I'd love to hear some testimonies.
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