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too learn in the teachings
of the lessons not taught,
too bathe in the waters
of the waves that brought;
a feeling of substance
right down to the bone,
and drown in emotions
that where never your own.

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its a curious thing;
that now even at it’s end
and through it all,
the sheer ecstasy
and complete heartache
my mind will only
and always remember you
in your most perfect form.
the heart wants;
what the heart wants.

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the most tragic pain in love
steams right from the root
when our hearts can crave only
the most forbidden of fruit
the most tragic pain in love
is the flame that won't die
all we long to possess
that money can't buy
the most tragic pain in love
is the pain we are taught
when our hearts try to forget
what cannot be forgot


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her beauty is the novel
that no words can describe
her beauty is the moonlight
the stars could never find
her beauty makes us equal
from sinner to a saint
her beauty is the sunset
van gogh could never paint

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her beauty is overwhelming
like watching the most perfect
thunder and lighting storm
she demands my attention
and i cannot help
but gaze in sheer wonder

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it was in those moments
between each stolen kiss
in that deafening silence
with starlight pouring
from your lips
i felt planets collide
universes bending
into one another
our love was never
bound for this world
our love something
else completely
as ancient as the stars
transcending even time her self
something else entirely my love
something extraterrestrial

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perhaps indeed
the greatest tragedy
the heart can endure
to lose the only one
to ever understand you;
the only one to see the perfection
of your imperfections
the only one too listen
when others speak
it’s a curious pain
to miss another so deeply
a kind of loss that consumes
memories of what once was
haunting hollow nights
you see;
even in your absence
you taught me;
time is the cruelest mistress
she wouldn’t let me have you.
she won’t let me forget you.

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there are nights
most nights in fact
when i feel truly alone
in this existence
completely and utterly
disconnected to everything
and everyone else around me
on nights like these
i stare at the stars
and they remind me of you
sometimes, just sometimes
i wonder if you feel the same
and when you gaze out
into a midnight sky
do i still cross your mind

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candle light burning gentle
the flames dancing so free
illuminating the water
a reflection of me
i gaze into it’s glow
i am lost in it’s gleam
lost deep in that water
the person i used to be


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slipping out of that tiny gown
nothing could have caught her;
wet skin steeped in candlelight
honey, i was so jealous of the water.

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give love even to those
that deserve it least
i promise you;
they need it the most

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waves crashing amidst foam
the sky lost behind cloud
an ocean swelled in my lungs
when her voice spoke aloud
those waters pulled me under
and as i drowned, i gazed above
her magic, unlike any other;
an unspeakable kind of love

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sadness is a quicksand
the more you wrestle within it
the more you allow it
to imprison you

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to look out into that
endless ocean of stars
is to look deep into ones self
you are the eyes in which
the stars use to gaze back at their glory
you are an aperture of the universe
looking deep out into the darkness
to witness it’s own magnificence

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honey, you ruined me
for anyone else
nothing could ever compare.

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there is no greater romance
than a love through words
that pour from the soul
staining endless pages in ink
there is no greater romance
than the souls cheated by time
yet stay afloat through the memories
when their hearts start to sink

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if only you’d understand
the light in which i see you.
or the way your absence lingers in a room;
long after you have left it.
i wonder if mirrors melt
under your gaze
or the bedsheets savour
every moment wrapped in you.
i wonder if those around know;
just how wonderful
being in your audience truly is.
the right person
at the wrong time.
fates cruelest joke.
she never let me choose
falling in love with you.
nor has she ever taught me,
on how to stop.

to allow her to love you
with a love that endures
first trust in her heart
and trust her with yours
pave way for her dreams
sit not on her throne
carry all of her fears
as if they are your own
allow her to grow
to question desire
nurse all of her embers
til she burns like wildfire
touch not her body
until you awaken her mind
she will give you her soul
and all of her time

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that is what keeps me
awake almost every single night
not the moments i felt weakest
not the times i hurt most
but the feeling of losing you
because i was lost in myself

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i am no better
i am no worse
i try improve how i am
to improve who i am
from the experience
of who i was


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timeless she stood
bathing in the moonlight
the hands of time
long forgotten their duty
her eyes locked with mine
in a wondrous dance
through the stars
her light shinning brighter
than ten thousand suns
she was all i could see
even without looking

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every night in my mind
i walk the bridge of time
a world between our own
to place roses on your throne
i hang my head in shame
accepting of the blame
i remember the regret
just so i never will forget

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now all that remains
amidst the frost and the dew
a sun beam in an indian summer
and memories of you
sometimes; our ability to not forget
is the most tragic kind of pain
and the more that things change;
the more they stay the same

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be careful what you wish for
in the darkest corners of your mind
when no one else is around
the desperation of your prayers
in the stillness of the night
be careful what you wish for
for the devil listens too
and he doesn’t always come
with a pitchfork and horns
sometimes, he comes dressed
as everything you ever wanted

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she was all that
i had ever wanted
to be closer to her
just like icarus
blinded by desire
and without knowing
i had flown too close to the sun
the love i once thought
could save me
had burned my wings
and left me drowning at sea
gasping for air
as the waves pull me under
it was worth it all
for that moment in time
i was closest to you


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the hardest part;
is knowing what
we could have become.
how the planets would
bend between us,
how the stars would weep;
in awe of our love.
how the heavens would burn
whenever we’re apart
our atoms belong together.
they have traveled
across an ocean of time
from one life, to the next
bound to each other
forever searching,
forever entwined.
that’s the hardest part;
admitting, i was made,
to love only you.

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perhaps foolish our hearts
for thinking we could
hold onto this forever
like castles made of sand
we once stood so beautifully
frozen in time, side by side
together as we gazed out
in awe at the waves
as they washed us away

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a burning love
by darkened night
her velvet skin
was set alight
in sweat and blood
a primal lust
an ancient love
made just for us
our bodies bound
by space and time
my heart you held
no longer mine

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on nights like this;
lost under the blackness
of an autumn sky
the sanguine moon
she proudly hangs high
suspended in darkness
i feel her gaze down
each star seems less wonderful
when your not around
on nights like this;
my body aches for your fingers
my lips burn for your touch
one more night of sacred worship
lost in your church
if only i had known;
the world would feel this empty
time would pass this slow
i’d give anything to go back
just too never let go

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with you,
i found comfort
in the silence
clocks no longer
counting minutes
every moment timeless

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every single night she meets me in secret
under darkened sky she gazes down
we talk about how lonely we are;
me, among seven billion people
and her amongst the infinite universe

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the heavens opened
lightning crashing
though blackness
rain pouring, torrent
thunder echoed eternal
the sky crying out in anger
the universe in mourning
at the parting of our love

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under pale moonlight
she leaves roses in her wake
demons dance in midnights hour
as gentle hearts must break
my queen of the underworld
i wait patient by your throne
and to say that i won’t love you
is the sweetest lie i’ve known

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the hardest part
about missing someone
is not in the memories
you carry closest
but the ones
you had no idea
you’d miss so much

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foolish are the brave
faithless are the lost
but hopeless is he;
who can love only himself

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i am terrified to lose
a love so sacred
we hid it from the world
a love so mysterious
we hid it from ourselves

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beneath an autumn sky
my heart calls on yours
in midnight desperation
i ache for your touch
nights of wine and worship
still linger on my tongue
like a phantom you walk my mind
every moment i’m alone

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her lips pressed against my lips
like honey soaked confetti
her fingers cut me open with such beauty
like a daffodil machete

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i struggle to define
exactly what
you mean to me
these eyes
have gazed upon
an ocean of faces
in this world
but still yours,
the only one i see
eyes that gaze
deep into my glare
cut me to the core
but god no longer cares
to hear my voice
laying passed out
on the floor
my head at war
with my heart
i simply cannot
understand
why a love
as real as ours
is left forgotten
in the sand
i walk this shore
an endless loop
in the hope
that i will find
just one more
moment
to feel your
love again
even if its
in my mind

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what is love but the act
of complete surrender
to hand oneself
over so willingly
in the most beautiful
and purest form of faith
to abandon reason
to trust in madness
within that uncertainty
dwells true happiness

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every single night
she meets me in secret
under a darkened sky
she gazes down
far from the gaze
of the waking world
we talk about how lonely we are;
me, among seven billion people
and her, amongst an infinite universe

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this bed is cold
and lonely without you
in darkness i lay still, silent
the little space beside my shoulder
that you made your own
now empty, forgotten
counting cracks on the ceiling
terrified that you’ll forget me
i sink my teeth into the pillow
screaming to the god
i don’t believe in
a symphony of pain
pouring from my lungs
a sonata of sadness
rains from my eyes
drowning in myself
pleading to the universe
to bring you back to me
even as a shadow on the wall
or a memory in a dream

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our love lost among starlight
frozen beneath waves i lay covered
with nothing but memories of your magic  
my dearly beloved

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thank you for the dance
our hearts have loved
and loved, unshaken
behind each stolen smile
they both were breaking
we sought comfort in each other
a place to feel safely insane
a world away from everyone else
a world away from our pain
without you, minutes feel like hours
days don’t even feel real
the love that cuts us without warning
is the one that the never heals  
i hope our hearts may
find each other once again
so that i finally have the chance
to tell you, that mines
has never stopped loving you
thank you for the dance

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ink filled pages of my mind
still longing to be read
a song our hearts once sung together
still stuck in my head
these nights now just get harder
two souls longing too become one
like the moon i wait patient
for morning to return
in the darkness my body craves it
the gentle lullaby you moan
the electricity from your fingers
that sets fire to my bones
these thoughts haunt me now like demons
i am plagued by your ghost
and all our hidden little moments
are the ones i miss the most

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pick yourself up
and carry on
no matter the storms
that lie in wait ahead
carry on you must
far in the distance
against all judgement
skies are clearing
seas are calming
and the pursuit of happiness
is always worth fighting for


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beneath a midnight sky
she took his hand in hers
placed her head upon his chest
and with a whisper she and asked;
“will you love me forever..?”
her head racing
her heart hanging in limbo
she waited in silence.
gently running his hands
through her hair
he pointed her eyes towards the heavens
“just as the stars continue to shine,
and display their beauty
even long after they are gone
i will love you, just the same
each and every night
forevermore
and long after i am gone

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the smell of your hair
like a field of a million sunflowers
the touch of your skin
like mulberry silk
your lips pressed against mine
lightning crashed upon waves
honey poured from your mouth
in those nights we got lost
beneath the sheets of your bed

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her skin, scented in sage and witchcraft
moonlight spilled across her naked body
the air, screaming out with our filthy sins
you will forever be my sweetest hallelujah