I didn't even know
I was feeling all alone
This heaviness of fear
That you weren't even near
Should have struck me
I knew I should have said goodbye
But we kept on striding by
Knowing there's no future
In you by my side

I kept trying
Thinking that together
You and I could make it better
But we can't make out something out of nothing
I gave you my entire world
While you slammed me out of yours
This was never going to be something more than just a passing

When conversations die
The whispers in the skies
Tell me you're not really by my side
A kiss I once adored
Became empty and so cold
I didn't shed a tear
Once it all became so clear

I kept trying
Thinking that together
You and I could make it better
But we can't make out something out of nothing
I gave you my entire world
While you slammed me out of yours
This was never going to be something more than just a passing

When we finally said goodbye
There was pain across the night
But sensed relieve across the skies
Another failure to endure
Yet I'll make it through once more
At least we're both not secretly unhappy

I knew I lost you
When your behaviors different
As your calls became infrequent
I became indifferent to you
The words you uttered to me
Felt empty, the love you claimed
Felt forced and pained

I don't know why we keep playing...
These game of lies
I'm trying to figure out
Why we still stay...
Is it the promises we made?
I'd rather you walk away.

I knew I had lost you
When you distanced away
When you once told me "we're better off friends"
Then you came running
Talking about working things out with me
When I should have known
There's nothing to work on
*** the love you claim is empty
A mere fantasy you want to play out

I don't know why we keep playing...
This fantasy of love
I'm trying to figure out
Why I still stay...
I don't want to force you to the promises we made
I'd rather we just walk away

You are my smile
You are my bliss
You are the reason for which I live
I chase you down
I seek you out
Of you...I could never get enough

I crave that moment
I can no longer seize
Expecting fruits
From these demons in me
You once gave me courage
Where now, I'm fueled by fear
You feed on my hunger
The hunger to feel you in me

You are my sorrow
You are my pain
You are my scars
I stare at in a daze
You are my calling
You fueled my cries
You bring that rush
From head to spine
Down to my toes
Right through my core
I no longer have control

I crave that moment
I can no longer seize
Expecting fruits
From these demons in me
You once gave me courage
Where now, I'm fueled by fear
You feed on my hunger
The hunger to feel you in me

I love you
I hate you
There's such a thin line
You are the struggle I go through
Everyday and Every night