She said "I'm falling in love."

I said "I'm falling apart."

have you ever cried at the dining table? until you want to broth to your food with your cry?

it hurts knowing you're not what they expected. but, you don't want people to know that.

so, what you have to do? nothing, you just have to endure the crying.
and i understand, it really hurts your heart.

i can’t commit to anything
can i?

not people,
not plans,
not schedules,
nor times,
i can’t even do a daily write daily.

I long for your voice.

I kissed a girl with a broken smile;
nothing could come near.
She carved it with a pocket knife;
slit from ear to ear.
And she wears it like her favourite scarf;
it keeps her from the cold.
So I told her its only woven by
her enemies of old.

It was an ugly face you turned on me
It was a heartbreak in secrecy...

some say she was born with a broken heart,
unmendable by word or deed, and now armed
with a quiver full of witticisms and deft vertical
palm, friends, lovers, the world, all held at bay,
lest they discover her sorrow