i am alone
totally and completely
it wasn't like this before
i had so much attention recently
slowly i was trying to pull away
i was crumbling under all of it
i'm not used to people seeing me
i'm the invisible one
i'm the one no one pays attention to
i cut off my hair thinking it was time for a change
the only thing i feel is more vulnerable
i don't have my shield anymore
so here i am, alone,
waiting for somebody to save me
when all i do is push people away
thoughts from last night