I feel ugly
I feel horrible
Im honestly such a mean person without ever wanting to be
I want to smile
I want to be kind
But honestly Im breaking inside
I honestly want to fling myself off a bridge
At least then Id stop hurting people
At least then I could join my nana and grand dad

But I couldnt and wouldnt
It would hurt too many people

So I guess I just have to continue waiting until my lungs take me
Which shouldnt be too long v.v

Stop counting the days,
start making the days count,
stop wishing your life away
or regrets will mount.
Remember life is for living,
make the most of every day,
embrace simply everything
that life throws your way.
Each day of life is so precious
a gift so truly wonderful
there is a certain onus on us
to live our lives to the full.
Yesterdays belong in the past
tomorrows are always a day away
Live every day like it’s your last;
Because it will be one day.