i hate feelings
i hate you
i miss you
i want you
but i cant have you
you dont care
you never will
im crumbling
im falling
i cant stop crying
i want to stop
make the feelings go away
i want them to go away
i need them to go away

You ask me if I'm jealous
I shake my head no and smile
When really I'm crumbling inside
With those simple words i feel,
Terrified.
You ask jokingly "can I have a kiss?"
I shake my head and laugh
When really I wanted to yes so terribly.
You ask are you crying?
I shake my head and say no my eyes itch
When really, I'm crying over the fact that you don't feel the same way I do.
My friend tells me to tell you that I love you
But.
I know if I do,
Everything will be ruined.

The new kid
He's younger than I
He just moved here
But he's lived here before
So he's not really new
But he's new to me
He's smart
He has kind eyes
He has a kind spirit
And I think he's gonna be alright

We walked around
We talked the whole time
Your smile made me nervous
Every time you messed with your hair it made my knees weak.
You're everything I look for
You said let's do this again
The weird part is
I haven't seen you in two years
And it felt like I saw you yesterday
You're blue eyes looking in my green eyes
When you would just look at me and listen
You would smile when I made a dumb joke
I want to see him again
The blonde haired and blue eyed boy

It's been a while,
Things have changed.
She left him.
I'm still trying to figure life out.
School *****.
I cried a lot.
I met someone but , I'll never see him.
I was really ******* yesterday.
I had fun on Saturday.
Ice cream was fun with you.
I ran away from him.
That's all.

Today, something changed in you
You became a different person when I saw you
When you opened the door you seemed sad
Down
Angry
It made me miss the old you
The happy you
The smiling you
I want you be yourself agian.
The person I know and love.