I bring death to everything I ever cared about
I feel like a cactus in a party
Please understand why I'm pushing you away
Don't come closer and just make it easy
Oh how I wish things can be different

Your eyes told me everything I needed
Those eyes had never cried the way I did
You've never seen how deep wounds can go
The time it would take to start healing
The will it would need just stop hurting

So I'll keep you as far as I can
Keep you safe, away from my corruption
Keep the smile on your face
By hiding my tears with a smile

I was sleepy when I woke up,
My eyes was close when I saw the truth,
Still hoping for the best but the truth burns,
I have made myself a fool to your plays,
Inch by inch I pulled myself closer,
Been in a circle the whole time,
The truth is!
You think you need me,
you say you need me,
All you need is someone to be with,
you'll be just fine without me,
The truth is!
The flame was never hot
Just an illusion that hurts
Those spikes couldn't go through me,
The way your words cut through my heart,
As the night  dies the morning grows,
A plant full of thorns and afraid of the flame,
Now with eyes open, no more an ignorant,
The truth is!
I had my eyes open the whole time,
Just my heart ignorant of the things you did,
The truth is!
I thought I saw an oases of my life
Just a mirrage of depression.

For all the things I should tell you,

I was left with only one word

I can't recall that word, for it was cold that night,

we were under a street light, no one was around

Just us and the cold breeze

Surrounding us was the foreshadowing of the now;

A future that is just us cold as your hands when I tried to hold them

As you pulled your hands away, so did your promises;

promises that made a huge smile on my face,

those were just promises as light at paper;

that were blown away by the very wind that came out your mouth

I'm still here under the same streetlight where you left.

A streetlight that keeps on following me around;

showing to others what is left of me;

a scare, is all I have left of the memories of you

A scare that was made by you ripping the smile out of me

I keep on going back to that cold night;

seeking for answers to just one word

with only a scare to remind me of everything.

It's all coming back now

it keeps getting clearer, the word that I was left with;

but with it comes this gut wrenching feeling;

the word keeps echoing through my mind

why?

Thank you for cracking me up, no not the cheerful a joyful idiom. Bit by bit it just keeps on cracking! Here I am putting a double sided type on this crack. A crack formed by misunderstanding and decisions made by the demons inside out heads leading to a crack that keeps on cracking but thank you. Thank you for cracking this heart, without this crack I wouldn't had smile in the first place. Thank you for the broken heart.

by: Jhon Prietse Tacaisan


Can you please!

please be here

here to hold me tight

so tight that you’d never go

can you please!

please don’t leave me alone in the dark

so dark that i might forget you

can you please!

please look at this

this mask that hides it all

all my sorrow and pain

can you please!

please say something

something that my heart wants to hear

hearing it might mend it whole

can you please!

please be mine!

Please be mine again!

mine to hold again!

mine to be here by myside again!

mine to remove my sorrow and pain,

mine to love!