Will your eyes glow soft and inviting like embers from a campfire?
Will the curve of your smile draw me in like gravity?
Will your heart beat alongside mine, keeping time like a pendulum?
Will our hands fit together like they were always meant to find each other?
Will the string that connects us fray, or will it stay taut throughout hardship?
Will you tenderly wipe away the tarnish on my heart left by those before you?
Will you dry my tears and kiss me slow?
I know you are out there somewhere, my dear, just know that while you live your life, I will be living mine, not for you, but for us.
And if you never arrive, I will be my one true love.

so slightly below the splintered white ceiling
I dreadfully shrieked at what the wall was revealing

an apparition so putrid it rendered me ill
petrified numb I stood there soundlessly still

it felt as if glancing into an ominous mirror
one in which my grisly demise was ever so nearer

the bones were exposed and the face had decayed
sockets were empty and the skin had been flayed

the hideous doppelganger then wearily stated
soothsaying that my damnable soul was ill-fated

like a rabid old beast I lunged at the wraith
viscously clawing and drubbing to scathe

I suddenly swooned and plunged with a thud
awakening later in a pool of my blood

as I lay moribund on this cold winter's night
I stare at the wall with a terrible fright

the spot on the wall which I relentlessly beat
shone with the crimson of fresh slaughtered meat

but the blood on the wall was not just a stain
rather my portrait of whom I have slain

Stars above, so soft and bright,
Shine on Gaza through the night.
Hold each child in quiet grace,
Bring them hope and a safe place

Let them dream, let them play,
Let them see a peaceful day.
Hear this prayer, so small and true.
Love and light for children too.

God above, so kind and near,
Keep the children safe from fear.
Give them beds and skies so blue,
And let them laugh like others do.

the corpses in mud so corrupt and alluring
as relics of the sinful saints from times past
this land is a grave so boundless and vast
I have yet to grasp what it is obscuring

the blessed and the cursed are amassing
speaking in tongues only they comprehend
do they sing praise of their sins or repent
perishing again with each moment passing

I have finally fallen and won't rise to stand
alas understanding the language of death
though I cannot recite it in life and in breath
for I have now perished and this is my land

I've been doing some integrating                                                      ­         of  the parts I've lost contemplating                                             if  I  was  really worth saving                                                           ­                after  years of you being so debasing                                                         ­   I  had to fall before I could ascend                                                           ­      Had to disconnect to stop the pretense                                                 Endured  your painful smear campaigns                                                        ­ you  didn't have the sense to feel ashamed                                      Called  you out when you knew you lied                                             maintained  class when you rolled your eyes                                             I  never let you see you hurt me deeply                                               walked  away when you threw dirt at me                                                   You  act like you're surprised I'd leave                                               For  once I'm rejecting you and embracing me