As a person I know
You're usually awkward
And most likely weird
But when you turn serious
My impression of you turns different
I've never seen anyone like you
I never thought you had this side of you
But seeing you like this is foreign to me
I've  become attached to you somehow
And I can't seem to put much into words what I think about you for real

You have your way with words
That I get distracted
No matter what time it is
I come to think of you
I try to not think of you
But you just come up and show your face
How can I ignore you
When you're such a beautiful soul

"Why are you always by my side?"
Why wouldn't I be by your side?
"Why do you always have that smile on you?"
Why wouldn't I smile?
"Why do you always say you love me?"
Why wouldn't I say I love you?

Why I do all this?
Because it's all for you.
Because I'm your lover.

I don't know what to do when I'm in front of you
I tend to get nervous about your every move
I don't mean to be so tense
Just want to know what must be done
My heart shakes because of you

I try to act different when you're around
I don't want you to hate me
I really like you
How can you shake up my heart furiously?

Sometimes, I just have the urge to curse at you.
But I just can't say it .
Obviously, I'm scared of being scolded.
But I really want to hit you with a truck
And say "goodbye"  forever to you.
But it's not that simple.
Especially that you're close to me.

As a fangirl
I go through these daily encounters

Looking at your pictures online
Listening to your music
Watching your shows

Whenever I see your face
A big smile is placed on mine
I get this feeling of hype
That I can not even understand

Sometimes I hate this side of mine
But for some reason
I can't remove it from me

So I appreciate this side of mine
And look forward to what else is in store

I was given choices
Of whom I want to pick
You weren't one of them
So I chose none
'Cause even if the choices were better than you
They can't be the you who I know