Degree phase is an entirely different ballgame all together, the subjects are getting tougher and more thorough. Then uni came a-knocking, reality seeps in as parents constantly remind us to shackle down drop all but studies because it is imperative. And yeah you gotta play the game or you gonna lose. The time constraints are getting tougher, and expectations are rising exponentially. So I don’t really care.

An indecisive heart trying to settle throughout the night.
The night had tortured her with misery feeling.
She want to withstand against your restraints.
Her lost soul burdened to lodge within the halls.
Her conclusive heart thought it'd be easy back then.
And she entwine a series of tears with sorrow.

14 December 2014

Stadium Hoki

Alhamdulillah, I am so blessed and thankful for the opportunity that I do for myself to watch meteor shower last night. Why did I mention that? Because last night I have been so excited to watch meteor shower and we have been listening, singing, humming, laughing, and watching to the bits where we are so fascinated by the skylight of stars and meteor shower yesterday. It was a lucky day and I feel so heart-warming and my heart beat fast when I saw the meteor fall from the sky. It was really an amazing night ever.

An astounding night.
Gazing up, Gazing high.
Sparkling bright, shining skyline.
I saw a shooting star.
And thought of you.

She gazed in wonder.
A blazing comet goes sailing by.
Too lovely to be sold.
Flying past its tail alight.
Across the sky.

A billions stars in the sky.
Shine throughout the night.
Sparkling bright, shining skyline.
I wrote your name in my heart.
Forever it will stay.

Orked Saerah

12:19am

16 December 2014

Everyone will go through some hard times at some point. Life isn't easy. Just something to think about. Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the three hardest things to say are I love you, I'm sorry, and help me? Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile to see how much pain they may be in. To all my friends who are going through some issues right now--let's start an intentional avalanche. We all need positive intentions right now. If I don't see your name, I'll understand. May I ask my friends wherever you might be, to kindly copy and paste this status for one hour to give a moment of support to all of those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, worries of any kind and just needs to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of all my friends just for moral support. I know some will!!! I did it for a friend and you can too.

setiap arah yang kita lalui itu adalah berbeza.
tiap kali takdir akan menemukan kita tanpa sedar.
pada satu saat itu.
bila kita berpaling antara satu sama lain.
kita akan bertentang mata.

setiap langkah yang menuju ke arah cinta itu.
tiap kali takdir akan menemukan kita tanpa sedar.
pada saat itu juga.
kita akan berjalan pada arah yang sama.
dan sekali lagi kita bertemu.

betapa takdir itu tidak bisa disangkal.
dan kita anggap cinta itu seperti jenaka.
kita tidak bisa menafikan hati kita berdua.
bolehkah kita mengisi jawapan bersama?
di tempat kosong iaitu hati kita berdua.

several years ago since we last met. my heart are getting better that
hurt like death. honestly, i could not find myself who was once
passionate about love. the old days we go through like there is no end.
and now as i feel uncomfortable with my head down trying to smile as
usual. i wonder if you forgot our old days. i can't hold onto you
neither i am not able to forget you man. you say goodbye to me which
aches my heart deeply as i see you turning away. would we have not
broken up? will you still be in love with me? and not her.

Dreams


today i see you smiling again.
i smile with you too.
from distant.
will you look at me just once?
will you smile at me just once?

your dearly scent rides the wind.
and passes through my nose.
by my side.
i always get nervous when i see your eyes.

but today i see you are crying.
i cry with you too.
from distant.
i want to wipe the tears from your eyes.
from the wind cold.

thinking of the days.
a pieces of a dreams.
that will never happen.

love. i didn't know when love comes. without signal, loves just hit me
in any time. loves comes naturally. loves comes like a rain shower.
i feel it when love comes sweetly, loves embraces me like a dream.
i guess this is love. don't you think so?
can you feel my heart? can you feel my heartbeat just for you?
should i secretly draw it out for you to know my feelings for you?
i fall in love like a fool. i fall in love innocently. being happy
is a sign that i love you. and i want the world gets colored with the word
love. ill wait for you. i love you, until my words reach you.
i only love you. can you hear my confession? love is coming.
my words that are in love. my eyes that are in love.
all day i can only think of you.


when love comes to me, i want you to be mine.
when love comes to me, i love you till the end.
when love comes to me, i only know to love you.
when love comes, will you love me?

When love comes sweetly
When love comes, it embraces me like a dream
Every time I see you, I get a happy smile

Seorang Part I
Baru-baru ini aku merasakan yang hidup ini tidak lagi bermakna buat aku. Di mana aku rasa kosong setiap kali nak memulakan sesuatu. Bagaikan terputus tali layang-layang yang asyik ditiup angin di langit biru itu. Aku cuba dan terus mencuba untuk memahami setiap apa yang berlaku di sekeliling aku. Akhirnya aku masih di situ dan terbelenggu keseorangan tanpa sesiapa pun sedar aku di mana. Tidak ada tangan yang mahu menolong aku apatah lagi bahu untuk ku sandarkan tiap kali aku mencurahkan air mata. Aku keseorangan.

Seorang Part II
Aku masih diam di situ kaku. Sejenak aku terdetik untuk mendongak ke langit. Tika itu kelihatan malam pekat dihiasi dengan bintang-bintang berkerlipan penuh gemerlapan dan juga bulan yang terang memukau aku seketika. Waktu itu aku masih ingin menangis lagi kerana aku lupa pada Yang Maha Mendengar Yang Maha Melihat Yang Maha Mengasihi. Aku alpa kerna selama ini aku melupakan Yang Maha Berkuasa. Aku merasakan kerdil waktu itu dan pada saat itu juga aku merasakan aku dibius semangat baru.

Seorang Part III
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There was a life
When I met you once
As I stood in embezzlement
My heart pounded fast
As fast as the storm tide (or) Like a storm tide

Our destined meeting
Has perfectly united us
We only talk about love (or) All we talk about is love
That sparkle and shine
When the sun shines

The sudden moon shined pale (or) The moon, It was pale
The sky, It was gloomy
When you left me paralyzed
You’re the victor of the show
In the end of applause (or) You’re the centre of applause

I’m leaving no thoughts alive
Down a memory lane
I’m taking my pain
My knees are burning hot
Like the fire of aching

I’m feeling tired and I’m so done
I will be gone by night
You could have stayed
But love is a battle
Between the Sun and Moon

I forgot how the promenade was
That only hell that it brings
Too much of heaven’s a sin
Stay away from me and fade
And tell me this is the end.

She was standing, but she was breaking inside.
She wore a mask and held back her tears.
She kept it on the inside, because that's the safest place to hide.
The only time she could cry was when she looked up to the sky, because with God, she doesn't need to pretend like she's too strong.

selak-selak kisah semalam

bukan untuk menoreh lagi luka yang kian menyembuh

cuma mahu mengingatkan—
supaya takkan lupa—

luka-luka itu yang mengajar kau erti sebenar hidup.

I don't have anything to give
Only love I would
And why did you do this to me?
I am so heartbroken


p/s: Aku hampir ranap dengan segala kata-kata nista kau. Cinta yang kita bina selama ini musnah dalam sekelip mata. Tinggal aku keseorangan dengan hati remuk. T.T

Of our old times,
We sat there,
Under a tree,
With orange leaves,
We talked about love.

We held our hands,
Walked through the summer,
Smile the brightest,
Like the sunshine,
Our heart grew stronger.

Time is limit to us,
Day turns to night,
Which follows the nature rules,
Tick-a-toe of the fallen leaves,
Wishing the time could stop.

Today, I feel disappointed with some of my friends.
I feel very sad to the point I lost my way for a moment.
What should I do now? Should I just keep walking without way out?
This is really killing me.

You and I,
We started off as a stranger,
Like a perfect destiny.
That moment,
You are dazzling under the sun,
You are like a star,
Which shine bright on me.
This rhyme is for you,
From my heart to you.

Here I am,
Sitting on,
Listening on,
Watching on,
Reading on,
Till late dawn,
Will never be the same for us.

Aku lihat wajah sugul dia
Yang sedang duduk di sofa empuk kegemaran arwah abah
Tengah merenung nasib tuanya
Terkenangkan sikap anak-anak yang endah tak endah terhadapnya
Terngiang-ngiang lagi suara tua itu berkata pada aku
' Tak kisah lah orang nak campak mak ke mana, Mak ikut aje '
Begitulah ayat yang keluar dari mulut si nenek tua itu sambil ketawa perlahan
Riak mukanya begitu sedih
Sayu dan redup wajah tua itu

There I stood,
Which I can feel;
Which I can touch;
Which I can see;
The sea breeze,
The warm air,
The unlocked view,
I am paralysed,
By the beauty of the sea.

“There always been a time for me when I’ve been thinking about life. You know what so precious about a life? We can enjoy every moment that we make for life. Doesn’t have to be only study but also love. Life is a love. Otherwise, there would be no life without love.”

Love is pain.
Love feels so great.
But love might destroy one to another.
If you break the trust and loyalty.
There will be no love.
Only pain and suffer.

Like a secret, I keep it hidden inside.

“How can love change?
When do we know that our love change?”

“17 September 2014
We met on that day
I don’t really know you
We are surrounded by books
Your manly smile make my heart pounding”

I love the rap part,
The husky voice of him,
Where he staring in one eyes,
He killed in one strike,
And he need all is one.