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ella Jun 2015
i am an awakened dreamer,
caught between a fantasy land and the misfortuned truth.
romanticization is my calling,
pulling me closer.
like a magnet,
i am drawn.
drawn to you...
although you are my biggest adversary.
ella Oct 2014
i loved you with all that i had.
i gave you all i had to give.
now i’m left with nothing… yet i’m still here loving you.
ripping off my limbs, tearing at my skin.
here you go, take it all.
take my heart, take my brain.
take my eyes, and my hands.
i will fade to nothing, fade to dust.
just please don’t forget me.
i gave you all i had to give.
all i had to offer.
i'm gone now, but you’re still living.
that’s all i ever wanted.
ella Oct 2014
what did you think was going to happen flower child?
i may have been in the back of his mind at the moment but my name will forever and always be engraved on his lips.
really there’s nothing you can do about it.
you can try and pretend like there was something there, embellish what you thought you had… but regardless of what he whispered to you i am his favorite flower in the garden.
he left me to grow happily.
he let me grow into something beautiful.
though i resent him for picking you, i know you (a flower that has been picked) will soon die and wilt along with whatever love you thought was there.
just as the other flowers have died away.
i stay remaining, beautiful and ripe.
he will love me eternally, and might not ever pick me from the earth but i know he will come back to the garden everyday to water me and care for me. he wants me to live and be happy.
as for you he kept you for the time he had, he admired your beauty and scent… but you soon will return to the dirt where you belong for raking me of my happiness.
farewell...
ella Jun 2015
lay back and listen to the anchors of the forest...

falling from the oaks! - the sailors of the branches are commissioning the children!

alas, land **! - falling away leave the screams behind.

goodbye children,

don't worry.
ella Oct 2014
an eternal longing for a flame i cannot stand to feel. never will i comprehend the reason why my lips melt off when we kiss. they blister and bleed, so i pull away. i can’t bear the pain and stench of my burning flesh any longer. winter is approaching, the leaves will soon cease to exist. through this change i have misplaced my sweater. i feel the warmth though, i’m not quite sure exactly where it’s coming from. is it you? it is.

i can smell you.

i slowly creep my way over to your dancing flames. i watch in wonder, awe, and terror as your multicolored flames burn through the night. you’re breathtakingly beautiful, but then i notice something else. i manage to slip away from your beauty and see what i hadn't seen before. there are icicles dancing around you. circling your flame. your weakness… they sing and call to you. sirens they are, seductive and alluring. you let them come to you in the night, and corrupt you... you start to die down. slowly. sizzling. your light is dying flat. you push them away, for now. i stand watching mesmerized by your tricks. yet i'm sickened.

it’s dark now, pitch black. not a sound to be heard, except for the sizzle of your, what used to be known as flames. you’re nothing now. yet, i still stand watching. alone, in the dark. there is nothing left. you’re no where to be found and neither are they it seems.

i leave what i brought for you, on a rock beside your flameless pit.

matches.
ella Oct 2014
i wonder about you. what is going through your mind as you look off into the distance? what is consuming your energy? tell me sweet boy.

is it the distant memory of her lips? or is it her scent? is it her ***? or perhaps her taste? which memory is it lover?

tell me before it's too late.
ella Oct 2014
pleasure was on your mind,
you knew what you were doing.
no respect for anyone,
my lover you were *******.

how did it feel?
was it worth my pain?
do you regret it now?
are you going insane?

i hope you really comprehend,
what it is you did.
you lied to to my face you know,
and when we spoke it is you who hid.

goodbye phony,
have a mediocre life.
**** with people's lovers,
never forget our strife.
ella Oct 2014
how does she feel from the inside, my love? does she feel as though she was plucked from a branch? a fruit perhaps? she's a peach, isn't she? she's soft, fuzzy and warm? wet perhaps when you go deep?

how did it feel to have her gripping your manlyhood, well? how did it feel to have her grasping everything that was inside of me. everything i thought was mine. that was then was temporarily hers.

i want to know if your 10 minutes of pleasure was worth an eternity of suffering. i want to know if she was better than me? was she? was she? well lover, was she ******* better than me?

it doesn't matter now, for i will drag my nails down somebody else's back. i will choke on somebody else's shaft. i will care for somebody else way more than i did you. i will be respected and held on a higher level then you ever held me on. you dangled me, you did.

was she worth it? was she? i ******* hate peaches.
ella Jun 2015
barren like A garden,
empty for the season.
he left without notice,
gave no specific reason.

empty just as ruins i am,
he wanders far and wide.
when confronted with a conflict though,
he turns around and hides.

cowardly little boy,
proceeding through my sanctuary.
picking up what he pleases,
he's walking through - A cemetery.

rest in peace floral fantasies,
under the impression he was what i wanted.
left for dead - E M P T Y,
it was me his love haunted.
ella Dec 2015
you've cut me down you've left me bare,
you've left me wandering with out a care.

we were just another teenage misconception,
one that says "love is perfect" and there's no deception.

deceive me was all you that you ever really did,
you tricked my soul and then you frantically hid.

clipped my wings and instructed me on how to fall,
how to slowly **** myself and how to end it all.

you spoon fed me lies and held me up to the flame,
and if i remember correctly it was just for personal gain.

— The End —