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I believe my soul is rotten
Yet you say it is not

I see my face, it's so ugly
Yet you say I'm pretty

I think my body is destroyed
Yet you say I've earned my stripes

I know my heart is beyond repair
Yet you say you'll help mend it

Can you really see so deep into my eyes?
Into my soul?
My heart?
Sometimes I think you're blind
Because everything about me is *torn all apart
 Oct 2014 Neath
Joseph Esplana
dark hair, brown eyes,
She saw past all the lies,
higher and higher we get,
rain wouldn't even get us wet,
pills or joints. but whats the point,
I never reached her until she came to me,
calm and stormy behaviors just like the sea,
I finally spoke and her eyes awoke,
fear and love was in the smoke,
I asked about us and she was still,
realizing *it was my heart that she killed.
In 8th grade, I read a book for English class called, "Go Ask Alice" , It then became my favorite book of all time. That's where the title came from. As for the poem, I dunno..
 Oct 2014 Neath
Emily Kaminski
They say
to follow your dreams
and achieve it.
That's when I started to follow
and achieved you~
This is just something I felt like putting.
For once it's not sad.
In reality I have followed,
but hadn't achieved you.
Not yet at least.
 Oct 2014 Neath
Emily Kaminski
Until today(though not as often),
in my world, I can 'hear' the mocks of people, even from animals.
When I mess up on a small thing while helping someone,
it's like I can sense that they're making fun of me in their heads.
How I can't do things right, or how maybe I do it differently.
When I'm walking alone,
I can 'hear' the mocks of people, judging on what I wear or how I walk.
When I encounter a cat on my way, I can see it starting at me. Mocking me the way  how I notice its existence. It thinks I'm stupid.
Then again, that's what cats DO. It's a full time job of theirs.
Even with friends, I can sense their mocks of people, gossiping of the way we behave or dress.
In the end,
once I've been mocked,
I'm alone in the end,
as a subconscious laughing-stalk to the eyes of others.
I believe that we all need help, and an aid from a therapist.
v.v
#firstworldproblems
 Oct 2014 Neath
Emily Kaminski
I know you always see me sad, but that's just me fighting against my sad memories like usual.
But, I'm fine, really, don't worry.
To be honest, I feel way better when your presence is around.
Sure, I may act all tough and ****,
but I've always been like that towards people.
When you're around, sometimes my heart pounds, mostly my head,  and my face burns up.
I-It's pretty lame, but whateves.
I do like to keep my paleness, please~
I don't know what's become of me, though I know my life is reaching a pathetic stage in interests.
Anyways, sometimes I wish there wasn't an age ga-
OVERALL!! All you need to know is that I'M FINE!! You don't need to worry when you see my face gloomy,
just know that when you're around, I'm doing better~ -^_^-
When you see me at work, don't bring this up. Just keep it to yourself. >.>
#peetingkittensinthecorner
 Oct 2014 Neath
Emily Kaminski
I'm glad I got in touch with you as soon as I can(a long while back).
Or else, I would've always been in a terrible condition, after his depart from me.
I realized how much I missed you when I got reconnected with you.
Your jokes will always be as crazy like you are.
You're the nicest guy that anyone knows.
Like the only person that I know of, that NO ONE talks smack about.
How you do it?
Something about you, that everyone adores(even my family).
You're such a caring friend. You want the best for everyone and never wished them bad.
When we hangout, you'd keep everything so alive!
I appreciate everything about you.
You're so talented and dedicated to get things done!
Ever since you started to play piano, it always brings warmth to my heart and a cure to my sadness. When I call you(especially when I'm tearing into pieces), sometimes I request a piece or you'll simply start playing it.
Now, that you're starting to get into writing,
your stories and poems are AMAZING!!!
There's heart and soul put to it!!!
DUDE!!!! LIKE WHERE THEM GIRLS AT!?!
Seriously, you're those type of guys that came out
straight from them Hollywood romance movies!!!
In the end, we grew up as if we're siblings.
Though at times, I wish it was more.
But it's best to keep it this way.
Like you said, "Maybe in another lifetime",
as you say that to many others too! XD
I love you Neath~ ;u;
Brother dearest, you been there for me through thick and thin~
#viseversa
It breaks me and angers me, to see when you get broken by others.
 Oct 2014 Neath
Emily Kaminski
Look at where you are now,
look at what's become of you.
I'm so sorry that you have turned to pieces and dust.
All from letting your protective coat down,
from people who mistreated you.
The sad truth is,
that you're just the image of me,
how I feel inside.

Broken porcelain doll,
Broken porcelain doll,
who once was so beautiful,
but has fallen into so many wrong hands.
Hands that keep on breaking promises,
and those broken promises is what destroyed you.
Now that you're broken into pieces and dust,
we play a game,
a game that gambles this so called 'fate'.
Let it decide, for you to be thrown away,
or for you to be created into a new.

It's so unfortunate,
how many cruel people exist.
Due to their own experiences and choices they make;
from hurt, loss of values, corruptions and influences.
Yet, knowing the way they are,
they have the nerve to 'keep a promise'.
They think they can keep one,
though of eventually, it's forgotten.
Those are one of the things that made you fell apart.
These broken promises breaks you into pieces.
Sadly those people still exist.
They fend on the fragile creatures like you,
on the moment it's in their sight,
to keep breaking them all apart.
That's what makes them satisfied.
Sorry I went blind for a while,
poor you.

Maybe it wasn't meant to be.
For you to be created in this world,
that's filled with heartless souls.
So rest now,
you warn out, faded broken doll,
and just gamble with 'fate'.
Just waiting what'll decide.
I'm sorry,
I couldn't make you solid, no more.
For now, I'll gently caress whatever's left from you.
Broken pieces of porcelain, dust, and materials from your clothes.
The least we can do
is wish for the best to happen to you;
To be created into a new.
You never deserve this my inner-self.
When it's in a format like this, it's a song. THIS IS ONE OF MY SONGS THAT I WROTE! Don't take it! It's too precious!

There you see!? I posted a song! Happy now, Paul? XP
 Oct 2014 Neath
WickedHope
Father,
Do
You hate me
Because
I'm just like her
Or because
I'm just like you?
 Oct 2014 Neath
Moll
Write.
 Oct 2014 Neath
Moll
When I write
I feel my mind
Slowly melt into the paper
Like ink from the soul
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