You were Fire and Ice
Naughty and nice
Loving you hurt
I couldn't be helped

I wish you were there for me
Like I've been there for you
But you're not
Because this is a one-way street
And you're headed the wrong way

Concept: There is a soft smile that warms me even when my bones have turned to ice. It is eternally summer in his embrace.

it seems like only last year
we were standing here,
our toes in the rolling tides.
you told me that you loved me
but I could see some sort of
reservation in your eyes.
and now I'm standing here
my toes in the sand,
facing the setting sun.

*i hear your name in every breaking wave

2 am eyes open wide,
thinking about my life.
Silence envelopes my mind,
just me and the night sky for a while.
I wander near your angel face,
but you're sound asleep and I'm in the nights embrace.
Sometimes I wish that this would change,
but it's just me & the night for the rest of my days.

Never ceases
Hardly rests

I swallow blood
Glides through my neck
Blurry shaking

Amist black fits
Rips, twists, hits, kiss
****
Are you sure you want this?

Swollen, inflamed seas we call my eyes
And permanent frown lines

Obsession is an understatement
A suffocating, seductive idea
Grows to mania
Oh that mania

At least it's all mine

Romanticize trauma
I adore that folding, shrinking pain
Takes from my core, birthed from my core
Come accompany this misery, please

Your silent thoughts ****** me
*Torment me
Torment me

You are the
        window
              to my pain
  Cloudy with
            no chance of clarity
      I can see
               how far
away you are
                    Out of focus,
           still hurting me
                      *so easily