it was about a year ago
that i first saw your face
the talk was small
i had to go and you asked if we could stay
friends
it was about a year ago
that we talked and laughed and cried
it was about a year ago
that you never said goodbye
so i beg of you to let me go
for my heart cannot do
it was about a year ago
that i felt what it means to lose

not emotions
but my body freezing and falling asleep
once again I found out last
once again I feel left out
it doesn't even hurt
it doesn't bring me sadness
it just exist
and my body reacts to it
but my brain shuts down
my emotions turn off
it's like I'm away from my body as it's not feeling anything

the water settles
the sky turns dark
the love has made you full inside
and as it goes
and as it fades
the world may never know your place
as love is strong and seen as sin
two flowers' love
too pure, too clean
a strong wind takes it
turns it to dust
for love can never last

as i broke it off
i felt relief and
in months to come when
loneliness came knocking on my door

i barely tasted freedom, still trying to find my own breath and you ask me to give it all up for him again

I dream of taking a dive in the sky as I lay upon grass staring at endless golden clouds
ah what I'd give to live up there in forever summer smelling the evening air
floating around with a bright clear blue ocean of nothingness

The smell of sun on skin and clothes
Fresh breeze of the sea and the saltiness of sea water
Wine and ice cream
Long and hot days
Beautiful starry nights and crickets
Droplets of warm rain and powerful storms
The smell of nature just coming to life

That is what I love most

Cloak round her pretty dress
The hair in such a mess
Published in the press

The princess is in danger
She trusted the older stranger
The kingdom sent messenger
They're looking for avenger

A beauty walks the streets
Doesn't suspect a thing
When out jumps wrapped in sheets
A ghost of evergreen

And I'm walking that line
And I will be just fine
I don't need to be saved
For I am not enslaved

He showed up out of nowhere
And everybody fell in love
He felt like a long warm hug
The one you give while parting ways
No one could stop themselves from touching him
Even a slight passing brush of a hand
The smallest of touches
Not a girl nor a boy could stop themselves from smiling at his sight
Every breath he took made them giggle
And all sat down on one bedside
Laying one against another
Living in this presence
Getting along yet feeling a sting of jealousy whenever one got more attention
The greediest impulsively grabbing onto his skin
It was like a feeling of love and lust they never felt
And as it came to an end they felt the purest of joy
Forgotten all about the feelings the second he parted his ways
Like a long lost memory of first love

All I see while looking out the window are rooftops
Well, trees and rooftops
Actually
There's chimneys but no smoke
Not the season
The clouds are particularly white today
So many of them too
But still there's sky
Light blue sky
And though there's no sun visible it still burns my eyes from looking out the window
And there's a ******* peanut stuck in my tooth

i feel like I'm stripping my soul
like I'm running around naked and for everyone to see
but in reality I've got on layers of clothing and I need the summer to finally come and set me free

I was as lonely as a moon on a starless night

A fox just crossed our path
In the late dark drive
Forest roads invite
When sun doesn't shine
The smell of pinewood spreading through the night
The most I've been in love
Since the 1975

The most calming sound is ice in a glass full

I need an electric shock
like a thunderstorm
rolling down
breaking open
changing the air
leaving the earth new and fresh

my hatred rose
people lost brain cells
I've lost smell
I've lost my patience
I've lost my friends
I've gained peace of mind without them

feeling like I was meant to be alone
not belonging
nowhere to actually turn
just me, lonely, even with a group of people around

feeling left out doesn't push me to get to know more people
it makes me push out the people I know and burn the bridges

windows are flowing with rain
i feel it prickling my skin
sun burning holes into me
like the clouds weighing heavily
to drown in life
like the air living my lungs
the feeling of being crushed alive
i branch out of breath
living roots in my bed
the only safe place


help-
i've lost my head

my friends have better friends
my best friends have other bests
wonder if one day I'd mean as much to my friends as they mean to me

have you ever thought who'd find your body if you died a lonely death?

I thought I didn't really care
just another thing happening in the world
while everyone stressed I felt numb
today everything caught up with me
making me physically sick
I'll be okay though