My soul forever damaged
Predetermined failure
Molded into the person I am today
Afraid of the mirror
Indulged by the shadows
A wearer of many masks
Each with it's own story
But hiding the same pain
Quietly
In the dead of day
In the bright moon light
He sneaks out
Leaving behind the masks he wore
For so many years
You've probably seen him in the streets
Just never recognized the face he wore
That day

Teach me how to feel
But teach me to feel no pain
Show me how to love
But help me to not lose my name
Help me to understand
How to live in a world
That never believed in me

Growing up we all heard the same stories
There was a good guy and a bad guy
And everyone had their set roles to play
That's how we were raised
The ideals we were set to follow
But as we got older
And the stories got bolder
The good guy turned bad
And the bad guy turned worse
Our stories no longer had hope
A happy ending to look forward to
Everything that used to make sense
Seemed like an illusion now
The once upon a times
Became an after thought
Early bed times
Turned conversation in the dark
And the fairy tales we grew up on
Became a memory not really lived

The purest emotion was never love
For love is just a facade for hate not yet conceived
For she is the gatekeeper to our demons
For her it is just a game to see
Who can handle the pain
For love isn't real and will surely die
But hate stays forever
Just like my heart you left broken
I hate her more than I ever did love
Except now there's no strings attached
I'm the controller of my own fate
She doesn't play the strings anymore
Orchestra in the background
Commemorating this day of hate
A day no wedding will ever top

After that day I took a vow
To never let myself feel again
For knowing the pain a lover could cause
Enough to make any man crumble
I could barely pick up the crumbs
That you left me in
Now I look at how you've prospered
And wonder if it was for the best
I can't accept the truth in front of my eyes
If you are so happy now, after it all
How could you have ever been happy with me
Was that even true happiness
Or just another lie
Like all the ones you used to tell me
But I'll believe it nonetheless
Just like I did before
Because it's the only way I can move on from you
By choosing
To hate you for what you did
Or love you because that's what I promised
But I choose hate as loving was too painful
So I'll see you around old friend
And I hope he breaks your heart like you did mine
Because I was never able to