As the crowd gathers
for their final goodbyes
Wondering what they could have changed
Wondering what they should have done differently
thinking to themselves
Why did he think there was no one to turn to?
Why did he think he had no one?
Why did he think he had to go through it all alone?
but
Ask yourself where were you?
Where were you on those lonely nights?
How I cried at night waiting for someone to ask me if I'm okay,
To ask me if I needed to talk,
Just a shoulder to cry on.
Lay me to bed with a promise that you will never let go
But you never came, did you...
You never asked those questions
And left me to deal with it

So as the rain starts to drop
And the sky turns grey
Shed a single tear in my Honour,
And no more!
because you only deserve the one,
So close the casket, put me in the ground
let me sink into the blackness
Crying into eternity
For forevermore

I lay in bed most nights
Hoping
you would hit up my phone and wonder
where I've been
and what I've been up to
But I know you never will
I know you don't really care
or at least that's what my overthinking alter ego tells me everyday
Not the way I do at the very least
Only message when I'm wanted
Taking my help for granted
Only message when you want something
Because what I want means nothing
Right
?
I've always been in your corner
Ready to assist
But when I'm in the ring
I box without a shadow
Memories are the only thing I've got going for me
My only link to reality
My only link to what we once were
Without them I wouldnt make it through most days
And I wish I could say the same for you
But I know you don't feel the same
So I get ready to drift away
The lonely dreamer
Who never really dreams