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Oct 2014 mf

ParisThePoet

The pain fills my veins
Nothing is the same
Memories **** me
And my future I cant see

Leaves fall off the trees
And a new season begins
But a new beginning for me
I find highly unlikely

I gave up a long time ago
Now I don't know where to go
It's so hard to find my path
Like if it was the hardest type of math

My smile only lasts for a while
I've been running in circles for miles
My hopes and dreams
Aren't even what they seemed

Was suicidal when I wrote this a long time ago. I made it though and even if you feel this way you can too.

#suicide #depression #future #time #memories #dreams #hopes #new #nothing #beginning

Oct 2014 mf

Scars

Oct 2014 mf

The Girl Who Loves You

Scars

Tracing the outline of your scars
Is like reading your soul.
The stories they can tell.
Just more parts to your whole.
Never cover them,
Do not be ashamed
Your scars show the truth
Of life filled with love and pain.
They are a part of you,
What makes you truly whole
I'll trace the outline of each scar
To better understand your soul.

For a friend.
You know who you are. :)
❤

#love #life #pain #friend #soul #scars #whole #outline #alwayshereforyou

Oct 2014 mf

flash back

Oct 2014 mf

thund3r-bird

flash back

blink
now you're 5 years old again
waiting for mommy to sing to you and tell you everything will be okay
after scraping your knee on the drive way while running around
until daddy comes home from wherever he is

blink
now you're 10
mommy's leaving for work and you're crying so hard
because you don't want her to leave
you're not used to being around just daddy
because he's never usually home
so you run down the stairs but the doors already closed
and her headlights are pulling out of the driveway
and down the road she goes

blink
now you're 13
mom and dad are fighting again
you close your eyes and scream into your pillow to muffle the noise
but even the whistle from the train down the road
or the whooshing in your ears that sound like waves
from not eating in three days
can't quite the fighting

blink
15
you're eyes are glazed and heavy
and the smoke pouring from your lips tastes funny but
the walls are spinning and though you never liked carnival rides
it feels like one now as you sit on an uneven stool
in your best friends garage
and inhale the burning substance that makes things funny and
helps you forget about the impending argument
that's happening at home

blink
18
white toilet bowls and shaky hands
quickly you flush down the granola you forced down
that morning
before rushing out of the door before
dads new girlfriend could say hi
walking down the hallway
of the old apartment building
the tiles start to move
and its like you smoked that strange plant again
but this time the corners of the hallway are getting dark
and it feels like you've been walking for
f o r e v e r
so you grab the wall next to you
as the floor rushes up and everything goes
*black

#sad #depression #drugs #disorder #divorce #personal #fighting #parents #flashback

Oct 2014 mf

Grass

Oct 2014 mf

blythe

Grass

I am a grass.
Even if someone stepped on me,
Tried to crush my hopes,
Or wished to burn me in misery;
I just grow back
Even stronger
And greener.

There are people who will try to drag us down. There will be tough times in our life. But we must not let anything or anyone stop us from reaching our dreams. We must fight back. Get up immediately when we fall down. And show to the world how strong we had been :)

#hope #fighting #grow

Oct 2014 mf

You

Oct 2014 mf

Jennifer Collins

You

I see you standing there
Acting all innocent
I see you giving me glares
You are full of ****

You said that you loved me back
But that was a lie
Do you know how many times
You've made me cry

With your gorgeous blue eyes shining like the sun
You always told me that I was the one
You always tucked me in at night
And love you know that you're not as bright as you think you are

You broke my heart
Tore it into pieces
You told everything
Even shared your "Secrets"

But that was all a lie
You don't even care
You just wanted accessories
You didn't even care

I gave you every ******* thing
I would have even bought you a ring
But since you tore my ******* heart
We are now split apart
And now you say "Lets go back to the start"
But love I know I've cried
And I know you lied

Dedicated to my ex lover.

Oct 2014 mf

Chapters of Self

Oct 2014 mf

Sia Jane

Chapters of Self

I'm made of all;
The books I've ever read
Poems I've ever written
Faces who have smiled at me
Hugs that have wrapped around me
Caresses that have graced my inner thigh
Countries & continents my feet have touched
The lovers as we simultaneously reach ecstasy within
Lonely nights shedding tear drops
Nights gazing black skies moon & stars
Children falling asleep to my heartbeat
Animals whose soul was found through reflective eye stares
Conversations spoken in French, Spanish, Italian, Xhosa, Afrikaans, Norwegian, German
Years of ******-, cognitive-, dialectical-, art-, drama-, music-, mindfulness-, trauma-, psychiatry-; therapies
The drinks & drugs & mind altering substances dispersing my mind
In all I'm made of;
Love
Lust
Greed
Fear
Joy
Freedom
Longing
Dreams
Despair
Sadness
Anger
Frustrations
Happiness
Anxieties
Insecurities....

In all I'm made of;

A soul; securely contained within a body of battled scars;
over;
pain & triumphs, losses & gains, rejections & acceptances, dishonours & accolades...

With the hope; she too, can live life through.

© Sia Jane

Written at 1.53am

Oct 2014 mf

You & I

Oct 2014 mf

The Messiah Complex

You & I

You & I,
are a lullaby

We're the deafening *silence
just after the crash
we are moments of happiness
that never last

We're a riddle
that has no answer
we are both the cure
and the cancer

We've read this book
a thousand times, and in our hearts
we both know this fairytale
can never have a happy ending

I wish it did.....