Being alone doesn't scare me until I feel the elating presence of another individual.
The fear of being separate creates undesirable and painful attraction.
The closeness must be mental and physical.
Joy in addition and misery in subtraction.

I hug them close, day after day,
And they hate when I start to pull away,
And they pull back tighter and tell me to stay,
And I'm at a loss for words, not knowing what to say,
All of her emotions are on display,
Which makes her glow like a ray,
Of sunshine in early May,
Outshining my soul enshrouded in gray,
Warming me, making me melt like clay,
Deeper into her arms, I pleasantly decay,
Making me feel lighter than a feathers weight,
Making the universe let me know it's all okay.

My feelings are tremendously painful to experience, but they're real, as for now, it's a personal truth

In the end, my friend, acceptance is key. Let it be.

It’s kinda funny,
Everyone you have chosen
To Love,
To Hate,
To Fear
Was once to you
A nameless face,
A faceless name,
Perhaps both
Perhaps neither
But for sure they were
At the very least
A Stranger

i miss your gentle kiss, but lately
i've been kissing pill bottles more.

whit doves
bart simpson
but the best were Green Naked Ladies.
glistening like a Star on
Hollywood Boulevard
not even the
moon was as
high as me

I wish it were all a dream
A fantasy inside my head
So that everything isn't what it seems
For everything to come to an end

This is too much to take
Let it all be fake
There isn't much left to break
But I'm tired of the burn and ache

I can't anymore
I'm not as strong as I was before
It hurts me down to the core
What is there left to fight for

I wish this wasn't real
I'm not enjoying what I feel
It's impossible for me to heal
With the pain I have to face and deal

I see it all deteriorate
The world fills with more hate
Now it's all too late
To be able to change fate

But I wish it were all a dream
A fantasy inside my head
So that everything isn't what it seems
For everything to come to an end