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Emma May 2020
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I am very much afraid of the unknown.
It's funny because
I do not know myself
Perhaps that is why I am having so much anxiety
I'm constantly exposed to
What I do not know.
):)
Emma Mar 2021
):)
yeah.
i'm a happy person with a broken soul.
what about it?
Emma May 2020
if you’re 15-19 and want to make a friend please message me, it would be nice to have a few
i would really love to make some friends
Emma May 2020
it's 11:18pm
the only person
i can have around
to talk to
is myself
and i don't
even want to
talk to me.
16
Emma May 2020
16
I could easily write how I feel and what I know
But I'm only 16
What do I know?
Nothing
I'm 16
I haven't been through anything
I'm not old enough to have felt love
To have felt abandonment
To have felt stressed
To have felt anxious
To have felt alone
To have felt at all
I'm too young to understand
I'm simply 16
It's rather sad when you've been through more than some adults at the age of 16.
Emma Apr 2021
i’ve done it.
i’ve reached the final stage.
Emma Jul 2020
it is 4:55 in the ******* morning.
   i blame you.
      it's your fault that i am up this late.
         countless thoughts.
            racing mind.
               wondering
                  imagining.
                     what it would be like.
                        to be loved by you.
                           but that's as far as it goes.
                              my own imagination.
                                 and once i realize that.

it starts all over again.
sigh.
Emma Mar 2021
how sad.
that i’ve come to know a world—
where i don’t feel as though
i deserve to be loved.
in a world where everyone
deserves to be loved.
Emma Sep 2020
how lovely it is
to love someone without thought
it happened so quick
Emma May 2020
i wish there was a word
something
just something
at least
to describe exactly
how you make me feel
but there isn’t
for it’s unlike anything
that anyone
has ever felt before
simply a
definition without a word
Emma May 2020
darling, why are you trying to find a cure when there’s no disease?
this is the only thing i’m proud of so far that i have written
Emma Mar 2021
What a burden I am upon everyone I’ve ever known. And what a gift it is to everyone who has never known.
Emma May 2020
you aren't alone
this community of hello poetry?
we're a family
we have each other
Emma May 2020
As midnight strikes
My demons smirk
Knowing that it's time.
They rush to my vulnerable mind
Unlock the cage
And release the thoughts that weaken me.
For hours on end
My demons laugh as I fall
Helpless
Vulnerable
and Beaten
Emma May 2020
my heart let you go when i didn't want it to
you loved me as if i was what kept you living
we had that rom-com type of love that you can only find in movies
that love that every teenage girl would die for
you were there for me when i wasn't there for myself
and darling
what we had was beautiful

"will you take me to a place where we can see the stars?" i quietly whispered as you held me in the dark
"of course, beautiful" you smiled
"promise?"
"i promise" you kissed my forehead gently

all we ever wanted was to see the stars together
i wanted to be able to feel what the stars were trying to whisper to us
they kept trying to tell us something
but i suppose we will never know
for i broke that promise that you made to me
because my heart finally decided to tell me: "darling, it's time to go"
Emma May 2020
every part of me wants to cry
but
i refuse to
i refuse to cry
if i have no idea the reason
why my body wants to flood
itself with meaningful
yet meaningless emotions
Emma May 2020
the ones who have had the darkest moments shine brighter than you could ever imagine.
Emma May 2020
i have the choice to sleep
but if i do
then i am vulnerable
my demons would be able to
target the darkest parts of my mind
where all of my pain has taken off its armor
and it is left with a target hanging from its neck
so why would i sleep
if i can just stay awake

my knights are tired
but the night is awake
Emma May 2020
Maybe it’s the naive teenager part of me but...

I want to dance in your room with only the color LED strip lights on, chill dance music playing, and dancing even though neither of us know how to.
I want to stay up late playing video games together because we always do so much better when we play together.
I wanna drive around mindlessly with you in a car, listening to music, and just be free.
I want to hold you when you’re having a bad day and tell me all about it so that I can tell you all of the good things that you have to make it better.
I want to go camping with you in the middle of nowhere so that nobody can bother us, we can just be our crazy selves together.
I wanna make blanket forts with you and watch movies together.
I want to feel every emotion possible with you.
And I know that you want this too.
That’s the beauty of this.

I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I knew that the very second that you and I met.
I don’t know how, but my heart met you and whispered “him.” And that was it.
Emma Mar 2021
Everyone has a book.

Every single book is still incomplete until the day that its owner expires.

Some of us have nice, clean books on the outside.
"What a nice book, I bet it hasn't been through too much, it's in such great condition."

Open it.
Go on.

Read their story, will you?
What does it say?

Every book is worth reading.

The most beautiful ones are the saddest ones you will ever read.

So.
Tell me.
What writing lies within your book?
Emma May 2020
"his palms are sweaty
knees weak
arms are heavy
there's ***** on his sweater already
mom's spaghetti"
- Eminem's "Lose Yourself"
Couldn't think of anything to write but this has been stuck in my head for the past 48 hours.
Emma May 2020
i have the world at my fingertips
and yet
i have never felt more alone.
Emma May 2020
you
me
35 minutes away
3am calls
everything is bliss
you’re the miracle
that i have been waiting for
Emma May 2020
I can say every word ever created
but it will never mean the same thing
it does to me that it does to you
Emma May 2020
This life is NOT a simulation
This is not a video game
We are not just characters is someone's Sims game
This. Is. Real.
You are real.
You are important.
You are a here for a reason.
What that reason may be might take a while to figure out
But you are here for a reason nonetheless
This is not a game
You do not have more than one life
Cherish this
Don't take it from yourself
Emma May 2020
One day
I will write a poem
That will make you feel
The magic of music.
Emma May 2020
when i met you, i never knew that i could feel this much
what a plot twist you have thrown into my story
Emma May 2020
i wonder how beautiful my poetry could be if i put forth the effort
Emma May 2020
the world will not throw anything at you that you cannot handle.
Emma Jun 2020
love is just the quantum physics of emotions
Emma Jul 2020
i guard my demons but they still fight to protect me
and they are stronger than you think
Emma May 2020
it’s funny
the poems that i write
that don’t mean much to me
get more attention
and recognition
than the poems that mean
everything to me
Emma Sep 2020
Dragging myself to rock bottom so that I know in confidence, life can't get worse, only better.
Emma May 2020
take me somewhere where we can fly amongst the butterflies.
Emma May 2020
i’ve lived my life so far not knowing you
but not that i do
i don’t know how to live without you
Emma May 2020
my eyes are heavy
skin pale
heart numb
smile shining
Emma May 2020
never in my life did i think i would meet someone like you
a mirror image of me
but as a boy
and for that
i am very sorry, darling
i am sorry because we are nearly the same
and from that
i know
i know it *****
but that's okay
we can hurt together
fall into me
and i'll fall into you
Emma May 2020
maybe
just maybe
if i had a mother figure growing up
one who didn't just leave
two kids behind
who tried to take her own life
and leave it to my father to
save her
if she tried to fight it
the depression
the anxiety
all of it
the depression and anxiety she left me with
both of which i fight every day
and grow from it
maybe
just maybe
i wouldn't be so
messed up
but i guess i will never know
the damage has been done
the scars have been given

as for trying to contact me out of nowhere
on my
16th birthday
never
ever
try to contact me again
you have done enough

leave me be
Emma May 2020
love, fall into me
and i will fall into you
it will be okay
Emma May 2020
have i ever really learned to love
if i never learned to love myself?
Emma May 2020
Falling and f
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                             i
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                              g


Down the rabbit hole
We go
Emma Jul 2020
i wish. with all of my heart. that one day.
maybe.
i could look at you the same way that you look at me.
and return the love that runs deep within your veins.
Emma Sep 2020
your vices are my virtues.
Emma May 2020
this emotion is simply too strong to be put into words
Emma May 2020
you are the type of crazy that matches my crazy
yet somehow you make me feel sane
but you drive me insane in the best way possible
what a wonderland you've got my head caught into
Emma May 2020
for two years
i have not written a poem
i lived a life of a romance novel
but after two years
those pages burned
my novel came to an end
and the pages were simply ash
but the words still linger
the story still lurks
and it simply was not only my story that was burned
but the also one that i hurt
and for that
i am sorry
but no matter how i tried
the emotion that once lived inside me just seemed to have
died
my choice has left its wounds
ones that soon will scar

darling, we are young
we have so much more to live
and i hope with every part of me that you find someone who will make you complete
thank you for everything

you taught me how to love

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