oni - Hello Poetry

oni Feb 2015

cut

i am an artist
of my own
destruction

i dabble in
shades
of crimson

my only
canvas
is a sheet
of pale flesh

and my artistry
is to
die
for

#suicide #cutting #self #harm #suicidal

oni Feb 2015

living with it

and the worst part
is having all of these
ideas
in your head
about how you
are going to
change
your life
but you barely
have the strength
to stand.

#suicide #depression #illness #anxiety #thoughts #mental #suicidal #motivation #ideas

oni Feb 2015

i cant recover.

what use is a
body
that is on
fire

what use is a
mind
whose only
wish
is to
consume

#suicide #self #harm #depression #illness #anxiety #mental #suicidal #recovery #relapse

oni Feb 2015

ITS GETTING WORSE

i climbed upward
until i found
the world had been turned
upside down
and i was actually
digging down

#suicide #depression #illness #mental #suicidal #relapse

oni Feb 2015

ill

there is heat in my chest
and emptiness in my heart
that i cant fix

#depression #heart #illness #anxiety #mental #emptiness #chest #anxious

oni Feb 2015

relapse

i told you
because
i wanted you
to stop me.

#suicide #self #harm #depression #illness #anxiety #mental #relapse

oni Feb 2015

tower defense

the thorns
that cover your heart
seep out in words
dripping in violent
context

and i am merely
building walls
to protect myself

so do not tell me
that i am cold

#anger #life #cold #thorns #walls #protect #guarded