From deep within;
Emptiness.
As if you're trying substantially to chase a ghost;
Aimless.
You look around and there is no one, nothing
Simply yourself and some nonsense..
then
I ask myself, is it me? Am I the problem?
subsequently..
I take a look at my heart;
I wouldn't find pureness but lucidity and daintiness
However..
Im still on my own
Fighting the feeling of loneliness everyday
The day ends, I go to bed
Cry myself to sleep.. But I wake up hoping that my day would be different
no, it just ends horribly.. like every other day.
Giving up.. It hurts to give up though
Specially giving up on him
As if you're yanking, stripping out, extracting
a piece of your own heart and mind.
..
Holding way too many feelings
Nodding to people and heads
When I wish to have a simple happy life
With my loved ones,
Instead they misunderstand me,
hurt me,
blame me,
disrespect me,
enough..
..
I can't explain my love to him,
infinite emotions of love,
flowing thoroughly within every inch of my heart
..

Gravity
Was kind to me
And sometimes I could fly.

Fate, you see
Excluded me
And I felt I'd never die.

Take me to the ocean and
kiss me under the waves.
Watch me put shells in my
hair just like pretty mermaids.
We can watch the sunset as
you braid my brown hair.
Then curl our toes into the
wet sand as we stand hand
in hand. Collect the shells
with me and whisper your
wishes to them before you
throw them back in the sea.
Hold me in arms so you can
be close to me. Rest your lovely
bones over mine. I want to feel
a fire take place inside. Tell me
those words that light me up like
one of your favorite afternoon cigarettes .
I'll promise to inhale
the smoke you'll exhale. The
words
of I love you I love you taste
better than my cocktail. You
make me life drunk just like
the characters that
exist in fairy tales* ~

because the words spew out like *****
and I am one sick child.
They flow out of my mouth as
ceaselessly as the tears
drip off my nose.
And they splash around your feet,
but you don't even stop to clean up your shoes.