ky: Poems

Apr 2016 · 1.6k

ky Apr 2016

late nights and having fun
movie nights and spa days
mani-pedis and hair stylists
so many memories and pictures
i'll never forget you

#friendship #otherhalf

Apr 2016 · 468

here

ky Apr 2016

here

i remember we used to come here
to talk about our twisted lives
to look at the stars above
to hear the silence of the night

i remember we used to come here
you'd hold me in your arms
you'd whisper in my ear
you'd listen to me cry

i remember we used to come here
when the city was asleep
when the people were dreaming
when we were alive and breathing

#death #loss #memories #iremember

Mar 2016 · 379

Mask

ky Mar 2016

Mask

I don't tell anyone how I feel
there's too much emotion and not enough words
I feel like I'm all alone and no one understands
even if people are going through the same thing

I don't cry in front of anyone
it's a sign of weakness
I feel embarrassed
even if no one laughs

I don't self-harm myself though
even though sometimes it seems like the only way
to release the emotional pain
it doesn't solve anything

So put down the razor
cry if you're hurting
tell people how you feel
and most importantly, don't hate yourself and don't let anyone put you down.

Mar 2016 · 404

what if..

ky Mar 2016

what if..

what if you never really liked me
what if we weren't actually friends
what if this whole friendship was a lie
what if our memories meant nothing to you
what if we never talked again
what if we're not friends anymore
what if...

#friendship #breakups

Mar 2016 · 327

too young

ky Mar 2016

too young

i don't know what i did wrong
but you won't pick up the phone
and every time i think we're through
you come back and say i love you

it's like i'm stuck in your twisted game
and the rules change everyday
too scared i might break things
it's like i'm trapped in you

don't you think that i'm too young
don't you think you've done enough
with all your pleadings and all your guilt
i guess i was too gullible and thought you'd have changed

you come and leave anytime you want
using me but i can't get out
stuck in a maze and i'm trying to find an exit
but you're in the way every time i try to leave

#heartbreak #relationships #dontlikehim

Mar 2016 · 691

Untitled

ky Mar 2016

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Music
the one thing everyone in this world has in common
whether they like a genre or the other
it's still music.
it moves through you
can make you happy and calm or upbeat.
it makes you feel like you're not alone.

#world #music #emotions #unity

Mar 2016 · 178

Untitled

ky Mar 2016

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our bodies are just a structure
it's basically a thing
we use it for fun and for pain
we wear it down until it can't stand anymore

our bodies are just things that we take for granted

Mar 2016 · 277

Fall For You

ky Mar 2016

Fall For You

love, its not hard
it's not hard to fall for you

from your head to toe
your brain to sense of humor

how when you laugh, i laugh
and when i smile, you smile

the way your voice sounds when you sing
and to the way we kiss

the night you told me you loved me
and the look you gave me when i said it back

darling, it's not hard to fall for you
when you gave me every reason to

#love

Mar 2016 · 385

Youth

ky Mar 2016

Youth

do you know how many people are desperate
desperate to look young
to feel young

so don't just exist through your early years
you'll never make memories
you'll miss all the fun

#time #memories #fun #young #old #age

Feb 2016 · 760

I'm letting you go

ky Feb 2016

I'm letting you go

You're here on my porch
begging to let you in
trying to apologize
but darling, it's a little too late for that

You say that you want me back
but i'm already gone
fooled me once, shame on you
fool me twice, shame on me

Feb 2016 · 227

What A Journey

ky Feb 2016

What A Journey

Oh life
what have you got for me this time
i've been through highs and lows
but i haven't got much strength left

Oh life
what have you got for me this time
my bones are aching
and my heart keeps breaking

Oh life
what have you got for me
i'm in a hospital
and i'm running out of breath
(i'm running out of time)

#life #death

Feb 2016 · 328

What you see is not what I see

ky Feb 2016

What you see is not what I see

You think my scars are to get attention
I think my scars are there to remind me not to go there
they remind me of what I’ve been through and that I’ve survived

You think my outer appearance defines me
I think my outer appearance is nothing compared to what’s inside
my personality and knowledge is what I think matters more

You think my past is something that’s to be made fun of
I think my past has made me become myself
i’ve found the true meaning of a warrior but you’ll never care

Feb 2016 · 744

You're not alone, you'll pull through

ky Feb 2016

You're not alone, you'll pull through

When you're all alone
and you feel you've lost your way
just know that I'm here
and I'll always stay

Even in tough times
we'll make it through
don't listen to what they say
it's not true

I know it's hard
to stay alive and put up a good fight
although deep in your heart
you know nothing's right

but keep going strong
it's gonna pay off someday
and thank all your haters
then keep going your way

This is what a best friend is for. They help you get through tough times and I love all my friends.

#friendship #lovemyfriends #bffs

Feb 2016 · 444

Untitled

ky Feb 2016

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Tugging on my skin
leaving permanent scars
blood sheds out
but i let it dry up

busy chugging pills
trying to look skinny
even throw up a little
so i can like me

going through magazines
and wondering about
how they're so beautiful
and i'm not

i think god hates me
because my life is a mess
leaving food behind
for my beach body

By the way, this poem is not about anyone I know. It's for people who want to change how they look and are going through depression. I just wanted to leave a note that everyone is perfect in their own way. I bet that at least one person likes all those little things that make you who you are. Don't self harm and don't hate your body or treat it badly. If you don't like yourself or how you look in the mirror, well then all I can say is a mirror is a piece of glass and you are much more than that. People tend to hide their feelings with fake smiles and forced laughs. You'll find someone that will make your days brighter and that's something to look up to. Remember that "suicide doesn't end the chances of life getting worse, suicide eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better". Hope you have or had a great day and don't give up.

#depression

Feb 2016 · 3.1k

How I View Myself

ky Feb 2016

How I View Myself

Looking at my reflection
through the blurry tears
seeing not what’s inside
but instead what’s outside of me
at times like this
I need to realize
that life isn’t about appearance
it’s about happiness and love
whether it’s loving others or yourself
But still I seem to forget
enough to know everything’s wrong
from my face to hair
from my head to feet
Insecure about how I look
if people will like me or not
everything is jumbled up
and i don’t know how to fix it
i wish i could look in a mirror
and feel nice about myself
just for once
too much pain and too much hate
directed towards me from me
i want to be young
and be carefree
i want to go back in time
and be my old self again

#broken #me #selfhatred

Feb 2016 · 157

Untitled

ky Feb 2016

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here you are again
knocking at my door
trying to apologize and come in the way you did before

friends don't leave
and i'm so sick of this
it always happens with you and i don't think i can carry on

you try to change my mind
and get back in my life
but all the begging's not doing any good better hurry up i'll be gone soon

Feb 2016 · 435

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ky Feb 2016

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You told me you needed someone
a shoulder to cry on i guess
but after all your tears dried up
you ignored me and i was a mess

you said your goodbyes through text
not even bothering to notice
this dark cloud over my head
whenever i see you in the hallways

all you did was use me
and made me believe we had something
but our "something" turned to dust
and here you are pretending like nothing's happened

i don't know why i bother
trying to love when they don't know how
it's like i'm setting up a trap for myself
but i'm too caught up in your eyes to realize

#love #not #heartbreaks

Feb 2016 · 386

All because of social status

ky Feb 2016

All because of social status

His life is torn apart
yet no one realizes
too caught up in their own drama
to try and save a life

     His mother hears him
     Silently crying in his room
     but she won't go in
     her husband's coming home soon

            All the **** that people say to him
            it manipulates him into thinking he's the one to blame
            no one feels sorrow, sympathy, or even a little pity
            all because he's an outcast and it will lower their social hierarchy

#pain #loneliness #abusivedad #blamesociety

Jan 2016 · 1.9k

If I showed you my scars

ky Jan 2016

If I showed you my scars

If I showed you my scars
would you run away
or will you take a chance
and tell me it’s okay
would you hold me all night
and make me forget the pain
slowly falling asleep
to the sound of the rain
will you stay with me
and hold me as i cry
talk with me
until it’s time to say goodbye
if i showed you my scars
will you change your mind
go without a trace
as i’m left behind

#alone #needsomeone

Dec 2015 · 308

Black and White

ky Dec 2015

Black and White

Black and White
the world is colorless
I’m here feeling numb
you’re not beside me
so lost, I am
everything is so confusing
you sheltered me
from the outside
now that you’re gone
I’m left here on my own
I can’t see anything
except for black and white
I know I shouldn’t feel this way
after what you did to me
but I can’t help it
My love for you was real
If only you could say the same
such a tragic ending
not what I expected
but this is reality
I should stop daydreaming
because it always breaks my heart in the end

This poem is about heartbreak and bringing herself back to reality.

#love #heartbreak #lost

Dec 2015 · 320

Invisible

ky Dec 2015

Invisible

My presence unknown
My tears unseen
My screams unheard
My life undiscovered
My thoughts unsaid
My dreams impossible
I’m invisible

Nov 2015 · 287

At Night

ky Nov 2015

At Night

At night
the city lights up
it’s glow replacing the sun

At night
everything is peaceful
the faint noises still heard

At night
kids go up their roof
thinking about their past and future

At night
the stars holp up the moon
staying together until the sun comes up

Nov 2015 · 2.5k

Underwater

ky Nov 2015

Underwater

I’m underwater
I cannot breathe

I’m underwater
darkness surrounding
me

I’m underwater
my lungs
caving in

I’m underwater
drowning
an escape
from reality

Nov 2015 · 223

Forgotten

ky Nov 2015

Forgotten

my mind is all over the place
your voice getting faint
still can’t remember you clearly
only blurs remaining in my head

most memories forgotten
bits and pieces replaying
your face half covered up
your eyes as lifeless as me

sirens coming closer
hands forcing my eyes open
my lungs breathing for air
my arms becoming limp

my body becomes weaker
as somebody shouts at me
“ stay awake” over and over
if only they knew in a matter of time
I would be nothing just like them to me

— The End —