I'd never leave a night without my favorite men.
Jack, made me feel ambitious and protected.
Jameson, warmed me when the nights were too cold to bare.
And lastly, Jose, I'd never have a dull moment when he was around. He always knew how to lift my spirits when life was out of lemons.

I'd leave them all for you in a heart beat, but you've opened yours to me only to reveal a love as cold as the ice cubes in my honey Tennessee.

Where is the nearest liquor store? My men and i have much catching up to do.

I'm tired and always cold
Almost finished a family size box of Cheerios...food comas.
Lack of motivation because it's so gloomy and cold outside.
So, it seems like a better idea to stay in my warm solitude, rather than being productive and having a life.
But this too shall pass shortly,
It's just depression seasonally.

I wish I was as happy as I pretend to be
Scared of unspoken defeat, who would care?
I'm most vulnerable alone when my thoughts are racing
Like a web browser with millions of open tabs, thousands of book marks I never seem to reopen
My mind is tired and restless
My body wears evidence of emotional exhaustion like a blanket
This outbreak of sorrow won't last but even then, when all seems ok...The storm will come back.

I'm sorry that i can't save you from the chaotic life you crave so much
I wish I was as motivating as ******* and money
If i could give you a life free of the struggle you'd be living in luxury
never having to lift a finger
never having to worry about your next dollar
never feel unhappy and empty
but I'm just a friend willing to give up my content for your guilty pleasures
I'd give so much but it seems I already have
And it's yet to be enough to satisfy your taste buds
I wish I as motivating as ******* and money

Fall in love with their eyes
They'll never "change"
But that is a lie.

I once saw luminous golden hues that shimmered, on those days you were affectionate.

Some days there was fall brown with evergreen specs, in those times you were at your best and truly yourself.

When I couldn't see hues, you were at your worst.

But the last time I had gotten lost in your eyes, there was no color change...and it was the most horrid thing I've seen.

Hate never looked so depressing that night, your eyes mirrored what I fear most.

**Death