I feel asleep in your hoodie,
the ghost of your arms, *keeping me warm.

You found a home inside me
You buried your soul inside me without permission
And it was so cruel of you
To infest my brain,
To take over my life the way you have.

My momma told me not to love
She said it only breaks your soul
She talked as if it was a being
That walks the earth and swallows you whole.

She told me not to love
That it lies and misleads,
Not to fall and not to cry
Or else I can be sure it'll find me.

She told me not to love
She said it wasn't worth the pain
She said it's like playing checkers, over and over
And always loosing the game.

She said I would regret ever trying
And that I'd always come back in tears
So I was cold and I was empty
Dodging every opportunity through the years.

But now I think I found someone
And I think I want to give him a try
Standing in front of him, facing my fear
I'm ready to know what love is like.