Silence doesn't have to be awkward
The mutual happiness  of each others presence
Not bored not excited but content
But sometimes silence is intense
Raging riots inside the rambling mind
But conversation is not everything sometimes
It's just your presence and alittle time
Because silence can be alone
Clocks counting down your abyss
Harassing your mind with every constant click
Judging down more then you would like to admit
Overthinking under commit
Sometimes silence is all you can get

Iv never wanted to punch a wall so much
Another knife wound lead by misguided trust
"We will be here for you"
Iv heard that a million times
So ether people are deaf
Or just like to ignore my cries for help
But if I died tonight it would be a bunch of people claiming how they knew me so much
But If you did you would have known your presence would have been just enough

I want to speak mind but the screaming in my head always lead me to another dark pit
Another struggle
Me resisting that you resent me
Fighting a memory of something we used to be
So when you ask if I'm okay
Okay is the best I could be

this will be the countdown to my coma
Fishing inside these bottles for something real
Reaching out to touch something but there is nothing to feel
Mixing alcohol shrooms and pain pills signing a bad deal
But I guess done running on this treadmill
Going no where
So when you see me or if you see me
....I'm sorry

Everyday I wake up on my cloud in the sky
I have a great view inside my condo
But don't go outside
It's lonely on the top
But would I give it up to kick rocks
And chill out in the parking lot
Drinking shock tops with people who never stopped loving me
You know it
Cuz money ain't everything
My friends made me golden

I Tried So Hard To Keep You Happy
I Forgot No One Ever Tried That For Me