Dark room brought light to my dark thoughts
And another day wishing my promises weren't half hearted
I mean I broke yours so I figured my other half would be quite a bargain
It could have been a parting gift but how our eyes don't drift when we're in the mist of the social gigs a goodbye would be a total miss
So I wonder if the next time I see her lips
Would it be everything she wanted to say or
Another or last kiss

I love her
But maybe it wasn't the write time
But it seemed like her mom had her trained to read the plan line by line taking away any characteristics  that made her mine
And just maybe our relationship would have Been fine if she was blind...
Her mom hated me because I was black
She openly said it to my lover
But she never really did defend me
Maybe cuz I was supposed to be her knight
But those racist shots always got to me
And even tho I love her I had to flea  
Cuz I would go to end to fight for her
But she wouldn't face her mom for me

Me and her are from dark places
She's from sharp razors of anxiety  
Cutting her vocal cords scared to speak of reality a broken voice that striped by her so called family
But to finally have some have someone listen to her raging thoughts and non parted lips seemed like an anomaly
So she told me what was on her mental
About the abuse from her dad
The fear of men who whistle at her
Men you harass like kids in a crowd yelling hey batter better to grab her a attention and tears fall from things she didn't want to mention I hug her and tell her what's wrong with me the loneliness of being in a room of people the depression creep and nightmare of creatures on top of me so from then we decided to speak with me taking care of her and her taking care of me

"This might be my grand finale the world will be quite fine with out me falling out with a smile on my face  but at least I'm going out with a bang" - Larry Fisherman

Fine line between my mind and I must be useless or two face to late to easy to be replaced and it may be just lady fate has s great hate for me or my tape recorder mind replays how out of place I can be realistically I feel like I'm being drowned out at sea but there is no vanity cuz if I die out here there is no one here to see

Just open your mouth please
I'm tired of watching you die from the inside
But you say your heart resides in mine but all the the signs say different and I can only bear witness to the pain you show every day
Or the anger you show towards me makes me question even if you want me to stay

Iv been floating around city to city since i was born
was physically there but emotionally torn
mourning the loss of my long lost friends
the older i got i hated doing this over again
afraid to fall in love cuz disappearing after a kiss
or make new friends but a year later all their birthdays i will miss
and they write that they miss you and you want to reminisce
but 18 years in a new place and the loneliness really hits home
and  it must be in my heart because that where my past friends have grown