I sometimes find myself wishing
For something along the lines of
An inoperable brain tumor
Hoping
...Wishing, almost
For a reason to live my life to the fullest
It's silly isn't it
Hoping for death so we can finally live
How we need to validate our being happy,
As  if  it  needs  a  reason
I wish I had the courage to live my life on my terms,
Without justifying my happiness to others
I wish...
I wish...
I wish.

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You made me smile
You made me laugh
You made me blush
You made me forget all my problems
You made me feel better about myself
You're the reason why I'm happy


         but, little did I know,
  that the reason for my happiness
                  could also be the reason for why


   **I am broken

You're the reason why I never let my guard down.
You're the reason I can't sleep at night.
You're the reason I don't let people get to know who I am.
You're the reason I try to forget.
You're the reason why I've lost my sense.
You're the reason I've failed.
But-
You're the reason I've chosen the right people.
You're the reason I can finally put matters to rest.
You're the reason why only the best people know me.
You're the reason that I know remembering is best.
You're the reason why I've come back stronger.
In the end,
You're the reason I've triumphed.

If i would give you one thing in life i would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes and by that time you would realize how much you mean to me . I have this feeling that is growing daily inside me its like a seed that is nourished by the water of our love. . Between our laughs our long night talks the intimacy we have  the chills i get when i hear your words our stupid fights and jokes. I fell in love with every single part of you, and i will still love you with every step on my way . You seduced my mind and found my soul and by now I'm yours forever May god bless your beautiful soul and your loving heart and Keep you mine forever and ever.

i know the moment i fell for you.

it was when the skies were bright
and there was a twinkle in your eyes.
you were shaking your head
at something i said,
you were smiling widely
and your head was slightly bent.

i knew in that moment i was completely and utterly *******
and it was all because of you.

I sit here wondering why I've let others hurt me.
Why I have fallen for those who didn't love me.
Why I watched over the ones who didn't care.
They leave me broken as I'm still trying to pick up the pieces from the last time I was shattered.
Now I've made the same mistake as I have before.
I've let down my guard too soon.
I've let you in too fast.
Now I'm here hurting just like I did with the last.

i was taught
to always hand scissors with the blade
inside my clutch
facing myself
and the handle facing out
so I never hurt
anyone else
Since a young age
I was always taught
that it was better
to hurt myself
than anyone else.