You walked into my life
Disguised as
Liquid, pills and powder
You walked into my life
and you took
Everything

people know what they are capable of
you knew that you would ruin me
before you even knew me
and yet,
that didn't stop you

I would have waited for you
if you had said
something.
I would have waited for you
if you had said
anything
other than
nothing.

other people can't fix
the hole inside my heart
because other people can't fix
what was broken from the start.

oh how easy it was for you to undress me
caress me
impress me

I'm not a fool
just a girl
still not able to decipher between loves
knowing when it's the real thing
and when it's just people like you
looking to read a front cover
but never a whole book

oh how easy it was for you to tease me
and leave me

i thought having you over was a good idea
i thought loving you was a good idea
you taught me
sometimes good ideas
are actually bad ideas
disguised  
in soft lips
using words without meaning
now my room is outlined with thoughts of you
in the darkest shade of grey
and no matter how many times
I bleach these sheets,
your memory is a stain I can't get out

Everyone is distracted
It wouldn't be until I was drowning
That anyone would notice I jumped