The only thing worse than being hurt is knowing you are hurting someone else

She is one of reasons behind the smile, that saves so many people.

The State Of Colorado declared that
they made 12 million dollars by taxing
the sales of recreational marijuana.  As
it turned out, the figures were actually
a lot higher than that but the rest of
it mysteriously went up in smoke.

I had expected the stars to be close
Enough to touch
Hanging like stranded diamonds
Deep within the confines of
The rambling universe

i try to be there for you when i can
but sometimes it seems as if it not enough

you've always been there when i needed you
it may not seem it

but knowing you care
makes it a hole lot better

it makes me know know your there with me

you may not be there when i'm down
you may not be there when i need someone
you may not be there when i need a hug
you may not be there when i just need a friend

but ill always know your there in my mind

i just feel useless
that i'm nothing
and that if i fell of the planet it would be better

do i care to much
do i really mean a thing
would it even matter if i'm gone the next day

i'm sorry for all i've done
i didn't mean for it to be like this

Everyone is given a set of bricks
From a young age my parents built a pedestal
with those bricks
held me high above the others around
Bricks of compliments and loving gestures
layed beneath my feet

At a certain age
I became old enough
to lift up bricks on my own
Methodically I layed them all around me
My parents now too busy
it became a job of my own

But there was just one problem
I forgot to pick up  my feet
What I had been building was no pedestal
but instead a wall

By time I realized this though
others realized they had bricks too
instead of building themselves up
they hurled bricks
to knock others down

My walls now had a purpose
So I continued to build
the walls rising above my head
and ending at my arms length
I had built myself a prison
to protect myself from others

It was very lonely in my prison
just my thoughts and me
And although what layed beneath my feet was love
The wall around me was made of fear
and the outside world of **hate

Stuck in the jaws of life
And she's got bedroom eyes
The candle's burning cinnamon
But I don't know where she's been
And I sense something eternal about her gaze
But I feel something infernal about her ways
Cause I made a silly bet with Saturn
And now I've lost track of the patterns
That gave my life meaning
And gave nature's face a gleaning grace
I've already been in the garden, the place
Where all veils consist of a thin piece of lace
But to me, she looks like the May Queen
Wearing a mask to disguise her motives unseen
But my heart is stronger than my reign
She will always be my window pain
That I lean on whenever I feel the shame
That comes from the souls that fall
In every drop of rain