People who are broken and hurt are hard to connect with. There is something inside them that almost no human can fix. You can try to be a hero or think you’re different than those who did hurt them but the truth is you’re wrong. You’re just the same as the next person. You take them in as a charity case thinking you can fix them. They don’t want to be looked at as a problem that needs fixing, they want to be looked at as someone who was never really broken.❤️

One night I want fate take me to the unknown, meet a perfect stranger, drive all night, through the country, through the city, through our childhood homes. Talk about life, talk about goals and dreams. Not knowing where we’ll end up or who we will meet along the way, just two souls connecting. Just one night of freedom, adventure, taking chances.🖤

I went to Space in a space shuttle,
I saw stars on my way
But little did I know,
it would drop me off in a forest.
It was beautiful and green,
It was alive and full of smiles,
The trees were huge but friendly,
Birds singing, animals all around me,
Unknown creatures were peeking behind the huge trees as if they were shy to greet me, fairies blowing me kisses. I must’ve felt those kisses because I could feel and see spots of my skin moving.
But when I woke up, I wanted it to be over.
I hated the after results,
I was tired and hungry,
I couldn’t breathe, my heart was pounding.
I was busy slapping bugs off of me.
I wanted to pull my hair out,
I wanted to bang my head against the wall,
Rocking back and forth in full panic mode.
I was scared and felt alone,
I needed someone sober to hold my hand or just hold me but I had no one.
I cried all night long for someone.

Not an open book when it comes to honesty and feelings,
Judgement and rejection are my fears,
Although, I’d rather be rejected than to be judged.
Nothing more I want than to come clean, break the chains that I keep over my shattered heart, just let everything out.
But unfortunately, it’s not that easy.
People that can be your future will always pay the price for people in the past and that’s not fair.

You were the first man to leave,
Sometimes I feel anger and confusion,
Knowing you had far more important things to do than to stay for the birth of your daughter.
You came around again, spent time with me, but you acted like I was a burden so you left again. You have a habit of leaving and this 9 year old little girl didn’t know why, all she wanted was her Daddy, someone that’s supposed to protect and love her.
Yeah, you had your issues and another mans family is paying the price for that, but now you’re paying the price for it all.
You’ve become a better man, keeping in touch, but often I ask myself if you’re just bored or lonely or when you get out, are you going to run back to your old ways or are you running back to your daughter, only you know that, but I’ll always love you.

A mark that an author uses to end their story but chooses not to,
A reference for someone who wants to end their life but chooses not to,
A person who reminds the someone to just keep going.
If you have no other reason to stay on earth let me give you a reason,
Don’t end your story, write it and keep writing it. Write what you would want to read,
Write what you would want your parents, children, and siblings to read.
There is something or someone being your semicolon because you’re still here, so stay and keep writing your story.
Be someone’s reason to live. Remind them their life on earth matters and to keep going. Reminders are free and lives are priceless. 💙

A swan gliding on water,
A bird soaring through the sky,
A horse running magnificently,
A tiny dancer who wants to fly.
Bold and strong on her own two feet,
Beautiful and driven with every step,
Vulnerable and powerful through her spirit as she freely lets go,
Awaken and alive in the moment.
Dancing away all of her demons,
Regaining control,
She is who she is when her feet moves,
Just a girl dancing with her soul.

The idea I had in my head,
The idea that we were meant to be or at least I thought, the idea that I seen you in my future but you seen someone else in yours.
You married her and now you have a family. Often I can’t help but to feel that should’ve been me but I sit here feeling sorry for myself wondering when will I get my happy ending, the happy ending of healing and moving on.

Everyone is meant for someone,
Everyone has a soulmate,
I’m afraid to have to say
That’s not always the case
Some people are meant to travel in pairs,
Others are meant to travel alone,
Some are there for each other with no connection but just until they move on
Although, it’s unfortunate to have a soul that nobody connects with, and to be seen not as someone’s lifetime partner but just someone they need when they need you but never want you.
But the memories we leave will live forever and the impact on our lives will always linger.

Every person I meet I thought was the one,
But that soon all changed when they no longer were concerned.
So I say this to myself,
I am beautiful and strong,
I am cared for and loved
And before anyone else I will always make myself the one.
I deserve what my heart is worth, which is worth a thousand words.
I will always love me first until someone shows me I can trust.

Looking at him is like looking at the horizon that could last a lifetime,
Someone who waltz into my life like he was meant to be there,
It was instant, like adrenaline rushing through me.
I felt the whole world, waves crashing against the water, winds flowing through the air, volcanoes erupting fearlessly, then suddenly he was like the moon and stars, shined through the dark part of the world and became the center of mine.
It absorbed everything in me, I was losing energy but it was everything I wanted and everything I desired.
You came into my life not only as a friend but as someone I have learned to love dearly and respect. I want to be the person you deserve but I know it will take a while to get there because what you deserve is incomparable to what I can offer you but I promise I will try.