A house that dont have love just pain and sorrow and a kid praying for a better tomorow. a father fighting with my mother about anything to everything a life of hurt a life of lies a life of a place that never ends like an endless race. Kids crying of seeing her mother dieing and a father that never truly was. In my mind all i think is a gun with a bullet splating my brains and just maybe he can feel my pain. Looking at my blood and finally truly know whats he done just maybe he will understand.my pain and the devil will be laughing from his bloodlust because i just took a soul my own

it's supposed to be a moment of fun and joy under the sun but to me Its like I'm chained down deep below. Something about this compound does more to
Me then cleaning me. It effects me. It  goes inside me. It let's out my true fears and playing on my mind like a movie premier. I'm not scared of the touch. I'm not scared of drowning. Just the fact that your sharing the  same water with your partner and  I'm just here with the water and my heart just sinking down to the bottom of the ocean.

Time to time trying my best to speak but have a gun placed on my cheek. The truth must come out but to many things to consider to count. Innocent on the outside guilty of ****** in the inside. Society walking as a unit but hidden by a mask

The birds chirping
The wind blowing
The sun shinning
The clouds flying
And my train of thought it's at it's awaited pitstop

My mind flying
My heart pumping
My lungs breathing
My eyes closing
And my soul going up and looking down at me from a cloud

Hate how this memory of the past haunts the future of my present. Hate how every look and smile drives my heart insane and decay in despair. If you only you knew what I been feeling. If you only knew I'm still in love with you. Hate how young love never seems to end. We all made mistakes and I made the sacred mistake of all but you know what? Maybe that was my call to wake up. Lost the best girlfriend I ever had. I never cared about *** just making it last but after looking back I saw what I've truly done. Lied to you and cheated. Looked like all I wanted was to take away your flower as you did mine. Cheated on you because I thought you were on me but let's be real, I ****** up as your boyfriend but worst of all i ****** up as your friend. Now every night you always pop in my mind At least once a day just wishing I can get you back and show you what your truly worth. Make things count make things right but I don't deserve it. How can I after what I've done? Still kills me to this day, the biggest regret of my life and now i gotta live with the fact I lost the girls of my dreams  but worst of all I lost you as a friend.just wished it ended as a happily ever after in the last chapter but this is the conclusion that would always be known as the story of my life.

Is darkness really a place or is it an idea deep inside our mind?
It's empty but scary
Could be cold to the bone that gives shivers down the spine
Could give Suspense just waiting in the heart for that thing to pop in your face.
Maybe darkness is the evil inside us.
Gaining pleasure of the thought of demonic laughs and horror. Fresh blood painted in the walls and the smell of body decaying in our own home.
Or maybe darkness is just a person that were scared of so we cover ourselves with our blanket thinking Itl go away. It's a scary thought but maybe it's just a make believe story that they told us when we dint behave. All I can say is darkness is real. In different shapes and ideas. Wherever there's light there's always darkness deep in our mind and our heart

Why is it hard to smile ? Why is it hard to think? Why is it so hard to look at someone else and think it's you why do I gotta have memories replay on my mind when I'm trying to sleep why do you pop In my head when I say I love you? Why are you not letting me move on since you already have? Why is it so hard to just let everything go? Why is it so hard to move on? Why is it so hard to listen to the radio without a memory of us replaying in my mind like a song? Maybe it's a sign for hope for the future or maybe the devil is just playing with my heart. Going into the land of lies and grief maybe this is my place in the world? Or maybe I just gotta go through hell till I learn my lesson