I never said life was beautiful
I'm hanging on by a thread
The closer I get to love
The closer I feel to death

You're so lovely, my darling
If only I could be lovely for you
Patronize myself, I would never
It's just that I looked into the mirror
Realized that I deserve better

Pack up the old clothing, throw it in a box
Remove it from our room, I start the car
Back out from the drive, you beg me to stop
But I carry on, the road as my drum
My heart and the journey, two become one

I stop in the next town, adopt myself a dog
learn to settle down. Force myself to sleep
So I can fall into dreams, it isn't always easy
I'm still searching for what I need
Maybe write myself a story, sell it with my head
Leave my heart on the kitchen counter
Forget my fear and my dread

Beds still haunt me, I'm just being honest
Each picture on my wall reminds me of you
Every night spent staring at the ceiling is the most familiar thing I do
Oh, they say that there is truth in what you used to knew

Pack up the old clothing, throw it in a box
Remove it from our room, I start the car
Back out from the drive, you beg me to stop
But I carry on, the road as my drum
My heart and the journey, two become one

The wind is blowing the past back to me
The broken fights and sleepless nights
existential dread you never seemed to believe
Complicated simplicity led to our demise
Darling, accept the past and move on
Before the future is long gone

Packed up my old clothing, put it in a box
removed my heart from the room, started the car
Backed out from the drive, you begged me to stop
But I carried on, the road as my drum
My heart and the journey, two became one.

I sit quietly watching you
In the jungle overgrowth
of our living room.

Shape shifting between
a man eating lion.
And a lamb of peace.
.
I pour you a large shot
of raw burning whisky.
I hear the silent growling
Of your beast inside you.

Yet I feed you your poison.
Submissively placating you
Just in the hopes you
will not **** me.

All I have to cling to is losing.
I grip it like the treasure of winning.
But it covers me in shrouds.
In its touch of sadness
I can sometimes feel your fingers.
Reaching to me I grasp them
Unable to see you
For I am blinded by your loss.

Throughout this soundtrack that I call my life,
       your heart is the beat,
          your voice is the lyrics,
   your soul is the slow and steady rhythm,
             your kisses are the chorus
       and your face is the album art.
Without you,
  I would never hear music the same again.

Hold my hand in the darkness
Hold my hand in the light.
Theres a gap in the  curtains
The rooms filling with night.

Fear hangs like cobwebs
From the dark skies above.
Fill me with your starlight
Fill me with your love.

How sweet is the daylight
Yet so far far way.
Keep me safe in your starlight.
Until break of day.

The doves are all dying
No peace left to own.
In the wars guns are firing
No sweetness or song

So call to your gods
They all turn away
Death falls from the blue sky
Kills children at play

So weep in the night
Hide your tears in the rain
There's a hole in the heavens
To let out the pain

Let the bells toll forever
As the wars cease to still
Children drown in the oceans
In an absent gods will.