Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Jesica Dittemore Aug 2015
No one knows this pain inside
I want it to be real.
I want him to ask me
But he won’t “too young”
They say it maybe it’s true
But I want this to last forever
I want to be with him
Til we grow old and grey
Surrounded by our kids and grandkids
On a sunny day.
But we both want to do things with our life
So I guess we’ll wait, but it’s going to slow
I want him to ask
But I know he won’t.
Jesica Dittemore Apr 2015
Why do you hurt me?
With your words and actions?
Why do you push me away?
You keep me locked in a tower,
Away from the world.
Why do you isolate me?
Why do you put me down?
Why don't you see me
As a human being?
Imperfect like you.
Why do you make me
hate you?
Jesica Dittemore Apr 2015
Fingers harshly kiss my skin,
As the sharpened words sink in.
My mind in a tail-spin,
and my heart broken.
This wasn't supposed to happen
This isn't who you were
But now it's who you are
And the bruises are mapping
The hand prints on my wrists.
The redness of my eyes,
is not from relief,
but from the pain you inflict.
A father is the first man their
Daughter will fall in love with.
But you were the first one to bruise
my heart.
  Mar 2015 Jesica Dittemore
AJ Mayfield
Be fearless when you kiss me
Let your tongue be bold,
your teeth sharp
Take my blood as your price,
and mark me for your own
The moon shines a cool blue tonight
as we entwine our fingers, laying on the baseball field
beneath diamond heavens. We lie
in silence, in the moments when the Universe reveals
itself, and contemplate the distances between one celestial body to
another, the space between
us growing as I turn south
to find Orion while you seek Cassiopeia in the north.

Shooting stars cross the sky, and we wish separately on dead
stars and dead dreams, lights already grown red and extinguished
as we whisper in the dark, passing
between phases.

And in the end we're all left searching.
Am I the only one that has their demons feasting upon their souls?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around your mind,
To overcome the urges and temptations of ending your life with a suicide
They don't know the true pain and torment that is going on in my head
An epic battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End your life already" they say, as they prey on me during my weakest hours
Sometimes I give into the voices, carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful words that keeps me going
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait, wait and wait
Then my Demons will eventually go AWAY.....



~Imperfect Desire **
Next page