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  Dec 2015 Jennifer Weiss
Spooky Babe
Sometimes your words scare me
Even before they leave your mouth
I fear something I don't want to see
Resulting my heart to plummet south

Have you begin to understand
The spell you have me under?
Falling in love is not what I planned
But I hold white flags that say I surrender

Now I know why people fear love
Because of all that they could lose
Thats precisely why I hug you so snug
To leave a mark, an impact, a bruise

Like the one you left on my heart
That will be difficult to ever erase
But I never want to forget that part
To which no one can take that place

Remember the next time you touch me
That it means more than you'll ever know
Remember that you were my first "we"
Remember I don't ever wanna let you go
December 15, 2015 10:55pm
For my darling dearest
  Dec 2015 Jennifer Weiss
Rosie
One of my favorite books is Gone With The Wind
I read it when I was younger and liked to imagine I was like Scarlett
She was decisive, sassy, bossy; nothing could hurt her
I thought I needed a man similar to Rhett Butler
Someone who was authoritative.
Someone who could "put me in my place"
I thought of myself as indestructible
No one could actually hurt me

But they can.
I've realized I'm just as fragile as anyone else
Maybe even more so
Words can hurt me
And they do

I don't need someone who is mean to me
Or tells me what to do
I'm not indestructible
So I don't need someone to destruct me

It took me growing up to realize
I'm just a little girl
Hard times strengthen,
They form wisdom
And power.

They stretch the mind,
Renew thinking,
And Toughen.

Appreciating them isn't easy
Until they come to pass
And their reasons
Are realised.
  Dec 2015 Jennifer Weiss
Anshula Nema
The knock on the door was the last thing,
And the door was never ever opened again.

The very new chapter had begun,
And now the old was closed forever.
The fantasy,
Wild dreams,
Laughter,
Was it there to be?

Taking a deep breath,
She opened the door,
This time it was a new one,
Smiling she stood,
With Kohl in her eyes,
Hairs perfectly a mess,
With smile to make the world still.

Holding on to her dreams,
With some new beginnings,
A happy heart,
And maybe a new start.

She was strong enough to go on,
To move on with it.

Her wild dreams had a new destination,
Destination which was unknown,
And the road which took her there,
Was a mystery on it's own.

She was a world in herself,
The world which had no boundaries,
Where there was archaic,
Where she was the queen of her very own dreams,
Where the gestures were the best way to interact,
Where happiness was the key to love,
Where being you was important.

So she took her first step forward,
And she was ready to rise high,
And to fall,
And still smile,
Because this time it was she who had decided,
By looking back to the time,
She must smile upon her flaws,
And still rise above all.

And the knock on the door was never heard again,
And now the door was open once and for all.
Let it go, because you never know when its time.
Enjoy every bit and laugh till you drop.
Jennifer Weiss Dec 2015
It is so very strange.
To no longer be in love with you.
At least, I think I am not...
but then again,
why does it make so melancholy
to see you with another...
WHY is it such a...******?
Why does it rob me of clever words?
I know there is fullness of life without you.
But when I think about you....
Its like the same symbolism and meaning
I find in the birds.
and it scares me...
the not knowing
The hoping.
The believing.
It starts to feel as though I am deceiving
myself.
Wishing myself into believing God gave
me a
promise
Am I honest?
I miss you still.
Yet....
I wouldn't want you
as you are.
This part is true.

I guess that solves that....
God is faithful in His promises,
just make sure they are His.
Jennifer Weiss Dec 2015
Since I'm being melancholy
instead of doing what I should.
I'll write about all
the things I would tell you
if I still could.

You remind me of a musical.
One that I sing long after
the curtain has closed.
One full of heartbreak.
One full of everything that makes
a great show.
And you are all the characters.
The ones I love...
the ones I hate.
And I can never quite get over you,
I watch you over and over
staying up way too late.

But there are some days I don't sing your songs.
I find other melodies.
I carry on.

But one day eventually,
before too long...
maybe the show hasn't played in quite some time.
Or I have forgotten the words to a song.
I will sing of you once more.
Bathing myself in your music.
And I'm past the point of losing it
I just linger there, I guess.
Like your hand around my shoulders,
my head on your chest.

And if it feels too much,
I can always disengage.
But I wonder...sometimes...
do you even know the music
of my play?
I 'd know what to sing.
Jennifer Weiss Nov 2015
This is a laying down of arms.
As I lift my limbs in surrender,
I pray that I would cease with self-harm.
That these tendencies and patterns,
that have become so deep rooted
would be eviscerated and scattered,
I know this is the Lord's doing...

to renew my mind
To give me a new heart.
To make the most of my time.
I feel a leaf turning gently,
I feel an embracing of the tides.
I want nothing without you.
I can even welcome pain.
You are my life, Jesus.
Without you, nothing is gain.
I surrender
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