J - Hello Poetry

J Jun 2016

I am not the person I once was,
The nice and naive, can't survive in London,
It opens a world of hurt and being used.

If the world is going to treat me this way,
I will be the heartless person this city requires,
I just need to get all of this it out of my system.

I am so lost in this life of mine right now,
If I hurt you I don't mean it,
But my current path needs this until I find my way again.

#lost #hurt #drinking #naive #london

J Jun 2016

Played

That's exactly how I feel,
I didn't try enough the relationship before,
Maybe I tried too hard this time.

Perhaps I couldn't help myself,
When I looked into those eyes,
But I feel there's someone else.

Falling for someone hurts,
Maybe they play the game,
But mostly you are just a toy

#love #hurt #toy #played

J May 2016

Enchanting

There is something words can't describe,
You are my type but it's more,
I want to open up your shyness.

Something I know I have to work at,
I know that I could easily fall for you,
It's been so long since I felt this way.

I need to fight but I just don't know how,
My emotions won't win but it's hard to ignore,
How hurt you can make me feel

#feelings #hurt #emotions #type #special

J May 2016

Cancelled

I have no right to feel like this,
But how dare you cancel on me again,
I know we aren't together,
But it hurts when you do.

#dating #single #cancelled

J May 2016

Waiting

I am waiting for that day,
The day when everything makes sense,
So many days alone,
Too few days of content.

Waiting till my thoughts,
All my experiences,
Come together,
To feel more complete than any day before

#content #thoughts #together #waiting #everything #experiences

J Apr 2016

Lost

I am a good guy
Who is just a little lost,
In love,
In work,
In life.

Trying to be happy,
Just wears me down,
Some ups,
But mainly downs,
Doesn't mean I'm excused for how I was to you.

#lost #tired #notmyself #goodguy

J Mar 2016

Love vs. Loyalty

I believe there is someone for everyone
The perfect person, that fits like a glove
Everyday a surprise, making the boring, fun
But how do you know?

If I married you tomorrow,
How do I know I can't do better?
Love is strange.....
How do you know?

After years together, through thick and thin
Would it just be loyalty? To stop me moving on
Fear of the world without you? Being my blanket
Or are you someone I can tolerate life with, until the 'one'?

I still don't understand love... Maybe I never will. Do I like passing time with you? Or are you truly my 'one'

#love #thoughts #loyalty