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 May 2015 Camille Alipio
Amy
Zen
 May 2015 Camille Alipio
Amy
Zen
It wasn't until I was 20,
feeling down and out,
that I realized something important.

Self Worth Matters.

I had spent so many days
drawing my worth from others
wasting my time for 20 years.

Life does not offer a guarantee
that everyone we encounter will stay.
The only one we live with forever,
is ourselves.

I realize now that I shouldn't have spent all that time
all of those years
putting my happiness into other people's pockets.
Happiness comes from within, not without.
Never forget it.
just breathe and go with it
it'll turn down the volume slowly
it'll pick up again in no time but it'll stop
it'll stop but it'll pick up again in no time
no time and all the time in the world
all the time in your mind

and if you keep looking back on it
so frequently
you're just gonna get dizzy
you're gonna be spinnin'
brain fizzy
fizzy bubbles in a
glass of water
clinging to the sides in little clusters
born out of black holes
emanating truth

the weight of it
bending all things into it

you can look back now
but look far
look to the horizon
reach further than that
and you'll see it unfolding
and folding in synch with the ocean
the caress of tendrils of bubbles
tickling the sandline

you'll be able to feel it
between the fingertips of the moon
where yours fit perfectly
wrapped around
warm radiant stardust
radiant stardust

that you, too
are everything
 Mar 2015 Camille Alipio
Leigh
I'm not sure who was more dishonest.

Me: who pretended everything was okay because it had to be,
There was no other way;
Or You: who built the person you needed to be on
A foundation of snow.

When our time came it wasn't okay
And the snow had long since melted.


Me: who ran to fall apart and begin picking up pieces as best I could -
I'm not whole, but there are things I'm learning;
Or You: who crumbled to the world, clutching at redemption -
Your fear was always your best friend.

Of all the scattered fragments,
Was it enough to salvage our own?


Me: who gets through the day by day with steady paces and guilt;
**Or You:
.


.......
Oh, how can I let you know?
Oh, how can  I tell you
of my love for you?
You are the one abiding
dream in my heart.
Oh, I wish! Oh, how I wish!
I could give my body
to be all twisted and torn for you.
Let me be scourged with a scourge
that reaches to the bones
and leaves the flesh all tattered and torn
and my blood collect around me
in puddles of scarlet red
and runs down dungeon walls.
Oh, I wish it were!
Oh, how I wish it were so!
Then you would know
how deep is my love for you.
Oh, let me be impaled
upon a stake of pine
as my body struggles in pain
and my blood run down the pole
to stain the wood and ground deep scarlet red.
Oh, it is too late! It is too late now!
I am past every cure.
Oh, I see your face and ask myself why.
Why can't I find the word or do the deed
that would show my love?
A love as deep as the ocean.
Oh, what could I give you to show that love?
Oh, if one could tear out my beating heart to give to you
so that you would know the depths of my love.
Oh, your charms and lovely face fill all my waking moments.
Oh, if I could give myself up
as a ransom for you.
My life. My soul and beating heart.
Then I hope you would know.
Oh, I weep when I think of you.
How you are gone from my arms
and the miles hold us apart.
I know you think I am a madman.
I know you think I am a fool.
I forgive you! Oh, I forgive you!
For who could think otherwise.
Oh, I do not care!
For I have left all my selfish pride far behind.
Oh, without you let my heart no longer beat.
For I would be but a hopeless dead soul
who would be better to have never been born.
 Mar 2015 Camille Alipio
Kagami
When
 Mar 2015 Camille Alipio
Kagami
When each syllable turns into a dance
across your lips,
I can only imagine what it would be like
If I took your hand and stopped you.
When each alliterative phrase swings from
My lips, My only thought is

"Stop me."

When our verses fall silent and the falling snow
Turns into thunder,
I can only imagine what it would be like
If you made my heart beat louder.
Maybe I will continue this later, but I have a huge bout of poetic writers block.
 Mar 2015 Camille Alipio
M
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 Mar 2015 Camille Alipio
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there is no "should", there cannot-
if it is as it is now, it was supposed to be
we just have to go from here
and somewhere in this darkness, find "me".
Have you ever felt the need to drive
for miles and miles for a special someone
that you have no idea if they will even arrive?
Heart pounding, choked up on my own words.
Convincing myself they may never appear.
Maybe my vision is blurred, or my emotions stirred
as she enters my sight I take more flight than a bird.
My word, the fact that she's even here is absurd!
She is more than I pictured, her beauty not matched by words.
Even though it's only her first visit, I promise I won't
leave your sight, even if it's just for a minute.
Online dating... Yikes
A day, not a day
without you in mind

Cannot comprehend infinity
without you in mind

For it is you,
this missing link
forever lingering
in my river of thought

I'm out on it now
fishing for that feeling

Of starlit midnight
with you in mind

— The End —