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Leslie Jade Feb 2020
Most of the time,
i hate myself for pushing away
the people around me

Yet a lot of times,
i hate myself for caring too much
about people

I blame myself
in everything
that has been happening

It's as if I myself,
being born,
is already a mistake

I wish
I could motivate myself
to push through

How I wish
I am enough
for everyone

It's as if
I'm always pleasing myself
to other people in order to survive

Yet in the end
Who would dare to save me
If I myself cannot heal my soul
I know it's not too much of a poem. I just need to express my deepest anxieties away from my system for a while. I hope y'all would love this one. And hey, I'm back again :)
Leslie Jade Dec 2017
i am not okay
when will you ever notice
my mind is whirling
screams are silenced
i fake a laugh everytime
i get irritated from time to time
the blame is all on me
it's hard to be happy i guess
you try to talk to someone
but somehow you become voiceless
the pain is within you
no pill could ever relieve if
please save me
please; before i do something
everyone will regret

please.
  Dec 2017 Leslie Jade
Raindrop
A blue moon loomed in the sky tonight,
everyone watched you in awe
as you shined so bright.
Did you miss us, dear?

My love who now dwells in the skies,
your sufferings have come to an end.
Worry not about us anymore
for we're happy you've found peace in paradise.

Do come to us once again
in the form of the stars or the quiet rain,
falling gently from heaven.
Let us feel your love once more

We miss you,
but it is time to let you go
dance happily with the angels if you may,
fly high, precious one.
you'll always live in our hearts. thank you, kjh.
  Dec 2017 Leslie Jade
jessica grace
people come and go,
like a ticket with an
expiration date.
without warning,
they just leave.

but you,
who brought so
much joy and comfort,
⸺ through your music,
i was able to learn
how to smile again.
you, with your honey-like
voice, hooked me with
the lyrics you’ve made.
i wrapped myself
around your songs,
knowing that it is
what keeps me going.

but you,
who brought so
much joy and comfort,
couldn’t learn how to
feel the happiness you
give.
i’m sorry.
i know you tried your best.
you tried to find the light so
hard that it must have blinded you.
and thank you.
i know you gave your best,
until the very end.
you gave us music that will
comfort us in our sad days.
you gave us the inspiration,
to keep going no matter
how strong the storm gets.

you might have went without
warning, but you are treasured.
your soul is alive as we will keep
your music going. we will blast it
from the rooftops until they hear.
the love we have for you.
this one’s for you,
kim jonghyun.
my 11:11.
Leslie Jade Dec 2017
An angel as pure as gold
once have lived, stories unfold
screams in pain in a silent night
everyday is a struggle for a fight

left the world as if it was the key
drowning on a seemingly endless sea
tried and fought to survive the race
but never knew the ending phase

your smile was the best of all
everyone, including me, would fall
but none of us knew your pain
crying day by day with the rain

i wish you nothing but joy and peace
enjoy the clouds of heaven with bliss
i love you dearly our precious one
rest in His embrace; know that you've won
It has been a day since the tradegy happened.;I still can't believe that our brave kim jonghyun had alredy passed away. It was tough for him. I know. We know. But how I wish I knew it sooner. You've fought a great battle my dear. No more silent cries. No more pain. Please be happy up there. Guide your family as always. Support SHINee in every activity and decision that they would do and embrace every shawols who are going through a tough time accepting all of this. I love you dearly, our kim jonghyun. I will fight. I will try. I will do my best. I promise. Rest in Peace my love. This is for you.
  Dec 2017 Leslie Jade
Alex m
Today someone important to many was lost
Behind his bright smile was something started cracking inside
Being unable to see it others were unable to take note of it
He suffered on is own and the cracks formed into large breaks in his heart
When no one knew he was hurting the most
That once bright smile has now turned into a cold straight line
The smile that he left in our hearts will never be forgotten
It is not his fault for he fought his hardest
Someone that I have looked up to for many years just as others have died today. He was 27 and always seen as a bright person, but suffered from extreme depression. This hurts my heart to no end and thinking about it more has caused more pain in my heart. He will be greatly missed
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