I am not a puzzle,
Or cracked, like a broken window pane,
I am artwork, not a damsel,
And I feel it when I say my name,

The way the words roll off my tongue,
I am beauty,
I am strong,
I am invincible,

Those who pushed me aside,
Did not deserve the tears I cried.

Cause it's not my fault that they didn't realize,
That the fire in my eyes,
Could spill over and burn them,
That my words could hurt them,

That the lines written in my mind,
Could bring equal parts pleasure or pain,
So listen when I say my name,

It's a call to be seated for a show that's just beginning,
The anthem, before the first inning,

My name is the calm before the storm that is me,
So be seated,
Be ready.

God, I need your direction.
I have never in my life
been as confused as I am
right now this current second.

Lord, You know my heart.
You know my intentions are pure.
Why can't I hear you?
Why aren't you showing me?

Jesus, I want to do what's right.
Show me where to go.
Lead me in the way
your plan says I should.

Holy Spirit, be my guide.
This what I pray.
Take my very hand in yours
and lead me along the way.

I want to write something happy,
But honestly, I'm not sure how,
It's easier to write when I'm sad, or angry,
Easier than when I'm just ok, like now,

Right now I feel like stillness,
Like a quiet afternoon without a breeze,
Like a sweatshirt made of cotton,
Like a memory of salty seas,

I feel like something restful,
Like some great slumbering beast,
Like I'm looking to the horizon,
Waiting for the sun to break in the east.

i want to get high in foreign cities
travel to places i have yet to lay my eyes on
pack a bag and take off, my only motive to feel free
i want to kiss lovers on pavement my toes have never touched
beneath trees rooted with legends in their leaves
ensuring everlasting love
and i want to feel light, rather than weighed down
anchored to one small town
i want to drop everything and get away
to places where time is altered
and the stars are always present
whether it be in the night sky or people's eyes
i want to fall in love with strangers, cities, and scenes
i crave so deeply to feel free
to start anew

but at the same time
i want you to come too

s.s

She was like music,
and I longed to dance.

Her heart was the beat,
and I begged for the chance.

Her words were the vocals,
and I was put in a trance.

Her smile was the melody,
and I fell in love at first glance.

I'm lost on things for writing,
My head is strangely empty of words,
I've wrote them all down,
For the moment,
I guess,
More will come though,
I suppose.

Floating,
                Flying,
                             Falling,

It's all the same to me.

Liking,
             Loving,
                           Longing,

There's no difference I can see.