you have been searching for home
for so long,
you have endured so many sleepless nights
that you have lost sight
of what you're looking for.
i know all about the weight
you carry on your shoulders
and in your chest.
it makes you feel as if
you're about to sink into the earth,
yet you still run.
from everything you are afraid of,
the person you're
scared you're becoming.
no one is closer to you
than that self destruct button
you have your finger hovering over.
stop running,
it's time to rest now,
the stars will still be there when you wake.

i am compiled of extremities.

either everything will get so loud
the voice can't speak over the top of everyone
and i feel like i'm drowning.
but other times
the silence makes me want to scream
until there is
something
to distract from the horrors
crawling their way into my mind.

i'm supposed to
be the captain of this ship
i should be controlling it,
but all it is doing is
slowly sinking and
out here there is no
escape or exit.

you were like the devil on my shoulder
whispering to me everything thats wrong with me
but i treated it all like the words of god
because you were beautiful enough to be an angel
but your poison filled lips
are destroying everything thing i
once loved about you
and now you are the dying rose
that you once gave me
sitting in my room
theres no room for you here anymore